If He Only Knew Ch.4

@Halaalx: i don't know about that.. 

@nawafalx: yala astnak janb el bench eli bl parking.. 

@halaalx: only 5 mins

@nawafalx: no

@halaalx: -.-

@nawafalx: 10

@halaalx: 7

@nawafalx: deal. 

@halaalx: 5 mins w anzl

I wore the first jeans i saw and a hoodie, sprayed some perfume and tied my hair up in a messy bun, i wore my glasses and last my phone and then now butterflies are all over me. And guilt. 

I stopped in front of the elevator.. Anzl ma anzl? 

I got a dm from him"wenk?" 

Ugh, just press the button already you won't lose anything ya hala!

He is a good guy remember?

@halaalx: elevator 

@nawafalx: <3

Uf uf uf........

As the door opened and i took a step out, i walked to the hotel exist door w ana mayta mn el6'eega but when i reached there and then turned to my right and found him there Smiling in excitement i felt a bit relieved so I smiled back and walked over to him.

Nawaf: gart 3eenii.. -sweet tone-

Aaaaaaaaah. 

Hala: umm hey 

Hala: mu shway 3'reb ena mwgfen hena?

Nawaf: w esh l3'reb? 5air ya 6air?

Hala-laughing-: bs a5af a7d yje aw shay

Nawaf: esh ya5ii! Wa7d ykalm wa7da esh el3'al6!

Hala-laughing-: 5ala9 asfen

Nawaf-laughing-: wsh d3wa

Hala: leh mar7t spectrum ?

Nawaf: leh aro7?

Hala: mdri.. 

Nawaf: hahaha 

Hala: no more cast? Esh elkasr abo esbo3 tha?

Nawaf-laughing so hard-: mu kasr bs mdri esh ysmona 

Hala: aah 

Nawaf: wdk nro7 nmshi?

Hala: um no a9lan lazm arga.. 

Nawaf: bs ma amdak?

Hala: 7 minutes 

Nawaf: shd3wa lhdrja karha elga3da m3ay-laughing-

Hala: la la mu ketha!

Nawaf: ajal

Hala: ma a3rf bs lazm arga a9lan jawali byskr w mama btdg b'ay dgega

Nawaf: aha ok alah y7f6'kk

Sorry:(? he knows that i know he's mad bs esh aswe! 

Hala-still standing-

Nawaf-laughing-: go

Hala: please la tz3l.. 

Nawaf: wla yhmk-messing up his hair-

Hala: yalla bye 

Nawaf: nshofk

Hala-smiling- 

WHY

-room- 

 I need someone that understands what i've been through!!! I need a girl to talk to!!! Madawi.

Hala: dawi 9a7ya?

Madawi: la 

Hala: ahaha esm3i a7tajk:'( skype?

Madawi: my cousin mawjoda 3adi?

Hala: youh eff

Madawi: what's wrong e7ki

Hala: the guy

Madawi: ee eeee kaifa?

Hala: ma3rf i've been backing off w ho lsa mt3alg 3rafti a7s mabi a6'lma m3ay!!

Madawi: haw haw!! 

Hala: walah m6'awi faj2a 9rt mabi a7keh w kl tafkeri ra7 to last summer w esh mumkin y9er law t3lgt. W bla bla bla

Madawi: listen enti you'll never get over it bs 7ram he might be a good guy and worth it give him a chance?

Hala: i don't know!!:'( mabi

Madawi: i'm not going to force u 

Madawi: bs etha mu mrta7a wa'67ella mn badri before its too late

Hala: you think?

Madawi: life is full of good chances don't let him go for the past

Madawi: and always remember, what's meant to be will be! No matter what 7ta if you kept running away etha u guys are meant together you'll end up together!

Hala: :') i hate how your words are true klba

Madawi: im here if u needed anything:( 

Hala: thank you a7bk walah. :'(

Madawi: much more<3! 

-few days later- 

Days passed with me trying to ignore nawaf or at least talk less to him but it seems like he's not going to let go. He really is true, and it was hard for me to athgal m3ah for so long.  

Getting out of my bubble for few days wasn't the perfect idea i got worse and worse. Running away from the thought of what could happen if i actually took a step towards this relationship.

What's been hunting for the past few days is the past, where butterflies were the most pain i get and where tears, were always from joy. 

The past, where i was happy. 

The past, where you were there. 

The past, where you were the only thing i cared about. 

The past, where all my dreams stayed. Buried. 

I did say that i've never been in a relationship but guess what? i lied. 

Escaping from the thought of him. 

Escaping reality. 

Trying not to talk about it for a almost a year was hard. But now it's time. 

-FLASHBACK- 

Thursday, last day of summer vacation. You know friday doesn't count! I'm stuck home with a fever and my annoying sister and cousin.  Bad. 

Mohammed: halaawii 

Hala: again with the nickname =)) 

Mohammed: lat5leni ajeblk shay yraw3kkkk haaaa

Hala: who's turning 19 in a week;)?

Mohammed: men:o

Hala: wa7d..

Mohammed: ama 3ad :p

Hala: ee .. I love him so much sorry m7md we have to end this

Mohammed: but but</3

Hala: LOOOOOOOOOL o9 bs <3

Mohammed: esh btjebenli tra asta8bl klshay:D?

Hala: ana hadya:$ 

Mohammed: enti klshay bhaldnya <3 

Hala: 7bebii:*

Mohammed: bs abi hadya:D

Hala: n6'am a5rb elmad7a hatha mu 3ajbni=))

Mohammed: w men by9er 1 thanawi ba3d yom =)) kaaak ola? Matw83t'ha mnk

Hala: .. Tshof

Mohammed: ya 39biiiii

Hala: ma7bk

Mohammed: mu mn galbkk wa7shteni let's skype tonight? 

Hala: suree!!

Mohammed: elyom wa7d mn el3yal mswe 7adth wallah msken he got injured bad

Hala: uff! 7bebi slamt'h:o

Mohammed: esh? 

Hala: slamt'h:|?

Mohammed: esh 7bebk?

Hala: asfa :$ zlt lsan ya galbi

Mohammed: halawii

Hala: hahahaha a7bk

Mohammed: i know you do babe 

Hala: umm.. 

Mohammed: kaif el7rara? 

Hala: ma3rf a7sni bardana bs i'm feeling hot inside 

Mohammed: oh trust me you're super super hot

Hala: LOOOOOOOL:$

Mohammed: eeeee let those dimples come out mab3'aiti

Hala: ana ma adri shlon tshof:)

Mohammed: mn ba6niiiii

Hala: wenk?

Mohammed: car

Hala: and you're typing? Tstahbl:/ 

Mohammed: 3aaaadi i'm pro 

Hala: m7md law sma7t!!?

Mohammed: ebshri ya ro7 m7md ma6labti shay hadi bs

Hala: now

Mohammed: yala shway w raj3lk<3 

Typical m7amd, barj3lk after 2 minutes bs yrj3 ba3d two hours. 

I'm used to him, used to everything he does, 5bz edii zy ma ygolon LOL..

It's right i was only 14 when i met him but i was mature enough to know the right from wrong and i proved everyone wrong when they said this won't last. I'm 16 now and it lasted for two happy years. 

We went through ups and downs together. 

two years of building our relationship. 

Two years of happy and sad.

Two years of growing attached to each other. 

Two years of learning from each other. 

Love was there, the whole two years. Not even fading once. 

-after two hours-

Mohammed: yala skype?

Hala: mali 5lg:(

Mohammed: trdenii????????? Ana?

Hala: tomorrow??? 

Mohammed: -has sent you a picture- 

He was wearing thoub and i don't even want to start on how good he looks in thoub. 3'air his "im sad face" uff<3

Mohammed: ahoooon?

Hala: alah la y7rmni mn halwajh!<3 

Mohammed: :(

Hala: daloo3ii bs walla lina 3ndi

Mohammed: w etha

Hala: :)?

Mohammed: a9lan mub fa6'elk ana ba6l3

Hala: nshof..

Mohammed: :*

Hala: el3aaab

Mohammed: aboo s3ood=))

Hala: LOOOOOOL

And it's been like this ever since i knew him, at my friends house which happens to be his sister, latifa.

The day went by fast.. Well, i slept early since i was so tired from the fever. 

I woke up very early the next morning, nothing to do and no one to talk to so i decided i would call m7amd a7rshaa.. 

Ringing.. 

Mohammed-sleepy voice-: hmm

Hala: 7moodi-dala3-

Mohammed: haa

Hala: wj3 -laughing- goom 6fsht l7ali

Mohammed: wsh bswe etha gmt -sleepy voice- 

His sleepy voice is such a turn on. 

Hala: engl3 bs 7bebtk 6fshana w t3bana w jo3ana w ent naym

Mohammed: 7bebi

Hala: hm? 

Mohammed: nawmeni-in a very sleepy voice-

Hala: Agola jo3ana ygoli nawmeni!

Mohammed: .. 

Hala: hey?

Mohammed: .. 

Ok, sleep well babe. Sh3'lk 3ndi.

Anyways, i stayed up till 4 and then he decided to wake up 3amna! 

Mohammed: morning 

Hala: ay morning?:)

Mohammed: it is to me

Hala: nafsya yabo nafs

Mohammed: rawgeni 

Hala: hmmmmmm

Mohammed: hug me

Hala: -hugs you-

Mohammed: real hug i miss u

Hala: abeeebii<3 

Mohammed: <3 

Hala: 9a7ya mn 8 ana mshtagtlk akthr

Mohammed: esh n6'am a97a badri anam badri-.- 

Hala: esh ya5i bl3'ala6:(

Mohammed: es'har ma3y lelah

Mohammed: 7awl t7s eb law3ti lelah 

Mohammed: 3d ilnjom eshkthraha 

Mohammed: yalii bgalbi kthrha

Hala: :'(<3 

Mohammed: es'harii m3ay elyom b5lek twa9len inshalah

Hala: good boy gone baaaad:o nsena last year mnawmni mn 8=))

Mohammed: you were 15 back then now you're 16 

Hala: 9a7e7=))

Mohammed: el sahra 9baaaa7iii<3 

We kept talking for hours about random subjects and when it hit 7pm i started getting really sleepy! Ugh fight sleep hala fight it!

Mohammed: yl3n abo il7a6' 

Hala: esh fek?

Mohammed: i wanted to skype with you bs faj2a dg wa7d mn el3yal gal byje

Hala: wsho hatholi they never call ef

Mohammed: tomorrow i promise awal ma trj3en mn elmdrsa ok baby?

Hala: ma3leek 3ndna ayaaam<3

Mohammed: 7bebtiii<3 

Hala: agolkk sr?

Mohammed: goli

Hala: i'm sooooooo sleepy.

Mohammed: mafeh!! La t7awlen

Hala: please 5lga mara7 tdre 3ani lma yje 9a7bkk!:(

Mohammed: bs wsh glna?

Hala: a97alk at 2 ok?

Mohammed: la la galbi amz7 m3akk noom il3wafi yarab<3 

Hala: t9ba7 3ala 5air<3

Mohammed: w entii mn ahla dge 3lay lma t6l3en el9ba7 ok?

Hala: mn 3yoni

Mohammed: i love you my everything 

Hala: much more yagalb hala:')

So i slept that night, happy with everything al7amdellah. 

What's bad is i woke up late, 3ala eni nayma badri bs 9dg la galo elnom ys7b elnom so i woke up fast took a shower wore my uniform i checked my phone bsr3a w lgait million missed calls mn my bestie amal bs mafe wagt adg 3aleha wla fe wagt i check bbm wla agol lm7amd eni 6al3a wla shay jani a9lan i didn't receive 3'air broadcast mn wa7da mn elbnat markzt b esmha so i deleted the chat w trkt eljawal w mshait! 

.. 

After 7 minutes we reached the school, oh how much i DIDNT miss you. 

Usually my friends are really late, y3ni eli yd5llon bn9 il79a aw bl79a elthanya specially on our first week of school! But what's unusual ena they were sitting on the bench eli janb elmad5l 

Amal, jood and lulu.. 

Amal came running the second she laid her eyes on me. 

Amal-while hugging me tight-: wa7shteni!!! 

Weird, she's not the hugs kind of person. My best friend, i know her. 

Hala-hugging back and laughing-: esh nag9a 7nan elyom?  

Amal-fake laughing- 

I hugged jood and lulu and they were quiet, like really quiet! My friends are always hyper, sleepy, suffering a headache, hungry ALWAYS HYPER!

hala: haw shfekom?

Amal: leh ma jbti jawalk? 

Hala: ma3rf 97ait mt2a5r makan fe wagta a54a w ma klamt m7md bythba7nii 

My friends know about him, y3ni jidan 3adi w bl3ada lulu bugs me about him.. But she's not?

Amal: wla shfti el  broadcast eli latifa raslta? 

Jood and lulu's face expressions changed. Now i started to panic. 

We were still standing beside the bench, and the bell was going to ring in any minute. 

Hala: esh fekom!? 

Jood: hala ana w enti n3rf ena klshay mgaadr w maktob 

Hala: ee? 

Jood: w ena emankk agwa mn klshay 

Lulu turned giving us her back and then she covered her face.. 

Jood-almost going to cry-: ana ma a3rf kaif aw esh agolk bs 36'am alah ajrk w allah y3aw6'k 

Hala: esh esh la76'a mu fahma ana? Men twafa!? 

No. No. No. Pleae, no. 

Amal: latifa arslt bc.. W elyom shft 3omar a5oy w gali ena 9a7ba twafa b7adth ams el lail.

Yarab enhom ystahblon yarab i know they love to prank me bs this is death??? mu l3ba!! la ana mt2akda ymz7on. I swear the whole place went silent for a long 10 minutes, my breathing wasn't normal, i started shaking like and saying things i shouldn't say. 

Rabi ent a3lam b7ali far7mni ya ar7m alra7men. Rabii la t7rmni mn a3'la ma amlk yarabii. 

He's gone.

long gone. 

Never coming back.

I didn't call him. I was supposed to call him an hour ago and he was supposed to tell me what i should do and what i shouldn't and his sleepy voice, i i didn't hear his first day of school sleepy voice? And his i love you baby? 

Someone please wake me from this nightmare. 

I was screaming inside, tears were locked inside of me afraid of falling, afraid of believing the breaking news.

If only i had a time machine to go back in time to yesterday w ag3d ma anam ymkn law ana ga3dt kan swaina skype w makan ra7 ? ymkn law ana msakt nafsi shway kan al7en ho blmdrsa? Aw naym? Aw ymkn he's in the parking with his friends? i wish i could go back in time two days ago when he was begging me to skype but i refused because of my sister i swear i would've skyped with him with no hesitation. 

I wish i could go back in time where he once tried hugging me but i pushed him away because he smelled like cigarets. Walla i would hug really tight, never letting go. 

I wish i could go back in time to stay with him, day and night. As he wished, es'har ma3ii lelah. 

I wish i could go back in time, to make him stay. 

-PRESENT DAY-

I'm 17 now and if m7amd allah yr7ma was still alive bykon 20 in a month. 

Sana ela shahr bdonh. 

This opened so much scars. 

So much memories. And now you know why i started acting weird around nawaf, and that's why i'm scared to go through anything like this. Mohammed was everything to me, everything. 

Then i lost him, and then i was lost. And everything i had was gone.

I tweeted out"i've been stuck in the past for so long.. Alah yr7mk." 

Latifa and amal retweeted and then latifa tweeted back"amen yarab al3almen.."

I don't care etha eli kano shaken t2akdo 9ra7taan it's been over a year and he's DEAD. Gone. What can they do about it?! NOTHING. 

-Whatsapp-

Amal: hey baby 

Hala: amolii wa7shtenii:(

Amal: akthr wallaaah ya galbi<3

Hala: i can't wait lrj3t riyadh this country is suffocating me

Amal: you ok habebi?

Hala: no amal i'm not:') 

Amal: esh fek e7keli

7kaitlah salfat nawaf mn A to Z. 

Hala: but i miss m7amd so bad and i feel bad for having someone in my life 3'aira:') 

Amal: allah yr7ma.. Ma a3rf esh agolk wala

Hala: amen yarab. 

Amal: but you know he's in a better place now, and you can't stay FOREVER like this. 

Amal: you have to give people chances and you've always said everyone deserves a chance in love right? W tgolen the new kid never been in a relationship? 3ala ena he sounds expert :p bs y3ni give him a chance you have to let someone in, sooner or later. 

Hala: new kid is just pure cuteness bs ma a3rf!!!:( 

Amal: agolk let go of the past, you can't do anything about it. And welcome him in your life

Amal: but always remember, althgl zain 

Hala: LOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Hala: Hufff inshallah..

Amal: a7bk halatii<3 please don't bottle things up again ok galbi?

Hala: a7bk:') mara

Amal: mu kthrii<3 

Hala: <3!

Amal: and enjoy cali!! Ya majnona ma atw83 enk tben tkonen bmakani now:)! Jeddah ? JEDDAH ? .. 

Hala: jeddah is fun-.- at least fe ur cousins 

Amal: wala eni mt7msa 3ala makkah bukra bnro7 n3tmr swa 

Hala: alaaaah alah yt8abl<3 amana la tnseenii ed3eliii

Amal: ebshrii bdon matgolen:(<3 

Hala: w ed3ela amana.. 

Amal: la tw9en 7are9<3 

So, past.. I'm letting go. But you know i love you, Forever and always. 

If He Only Knew Ch.3

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Lina: wain 3amti?

Hala: wsh m97ek enti?

Lina: enti eli leh ma nmti? 

Hala: lwifi 

Lina: shfeh?

Hala: al7en ashof bdaiti t788en??? Wsh d5lk? Ba3di bs mayta bnam

Lina: nomat ahl elkahaf

Hala: 7sbi alah bs

Deema: 5ala9!!!!

Hala: shfti!!!

Lina-walking out of the room-

Hala: hey hey wen???

Lina: nafs eli enti ray7tla -wink- bahaha amz7 -comes inside- 

Phew.. 

I gave her a look and went to the bathroom brushed my teeth and went straight to bed without checking my phone or anything. 

I woke up next day at 9AM i'm always the last to sleep and first to wake up this sucks i tried going back but it didn't work so i gave up! I got up, took a shower and then i got dressed in sweatpants and a tank top after that i went over where my phone was charging and took it off. 

[Twitter]

*tweets*

@halaalx: lack of sleep! 4 hours everyday aren't enough:( 

After few minutes i got a dm from nawaf.. 

-dms-

@nawafalx: leh el7lu 9a7i badri? 

@halalax: stupid sleeping pattern, enta leh 9a7i?

@nawafalx: abd nafs sbabk:p 

I had nothing to say so i didn't reply.. 

5 minutes later.. 

@nawafaalx: wain ray7en elyom? 

@halaalx: atw83 southcost 3shan mama

@nawafalx: w bs??

Fast repliers>>>> 

@halaalx: ee leh? 

@nawafalx: w bl lail?

@halaalx: spectrum aw mdri mu aked

@nawafalx: goli ketha mn zman ray7eni

@halaalx: haw leh???

@nawafalx: 3shan bshof wa7da ilyom :p

@halaalx: t'hna:p 

@nawafalx: i will ;)

@halaalx: btw i know your sister 

@nawafalx: sister? 

@halaalx: lamia 

@nawafalx: aaah lamia.. 

@halaalx: :p

@nawafalx: ma s2alteni 3an eli bshofha ya hala:p

@halaalx: w leh as2alk=))

I left my phone and changed my clothes and then waited for my sisters to finish, it took him 10 minutes to reply.. Weird.

@nawafalx: -_-

@halaalx: i got to go now my wifi byskr:p 

My sisters were done already and they were starving so we were heading to fashion island bs 6b3n deema mutradida yama lbast yama f95at.- b9ot elwaldah:p

Deema: abi your red converse 

Hala: balbs'ha

Deema: yashenk ams m36etk my jacket! 

Hala: wsho a3'ayr lbsi kla 3shank??  

Lina: tben my converse? Tra kbera

Deema: ashof -taking the shoes- 

Hala: ana bstnakom bl lobby.. 

I went to the lobby and walked to the first couch i saw i opened my phone after i jumped on the comfy couch. 

@nawafalx: see you tonight;p

@halaalx: i don't think so:p

@nawafalx: i know SO, b3den u said if my friends wants to see u again he can and he's dying now to see u

@halaalx: Mmm.. 

After few minutes 5watii 8raro ysharfoon.. 

Deema: yalla 

Hala-getting up-: lazm nro7 spectrum?

Lina-while walking-: ana bro7 m3 deema

Deema: men gal ba5thk?

Hala: la 9dg tra baba may7b kathrta 

Deema: drugs mub spectrum! 

Lina: tra mama rasltli whatsapp wenkom gltlha b fashion island galt enhom byro7on m63m 7g f6oor tbon nro7 m3ahom? 

Deema: ana bdg 3leha 

While deema was talking to mama on the phone lina dragged me to the back 

Hala: esh???

Lina: at7dak men kan m3ana bl elevator ?

Hala: men??? 

Lina: abo rjl maksora!!! El9udfa!!!! -laughing- 

Lina: wla 7ta 6al3 fena wla ebtsama wla shay wh thgl!!! 

. . . 

For a second, i didn't care if i'm going to see him again or not. 

-restaurant with the parents-

Om hala: mta gmto? 9laito elfajer bwgt'ha? 

Abo hala: tra elyom mafeh tro7on leli tbon kam le ma shftkom?

Lina: la baba!! Bshof 9a7btii elyom!

I stepped on her shoe to make her shut, my dad gave us everything we wanted and he never said no to anything y3ni 7ta el6al3a 3ala golta m36ena "the green light" y3ni n6la3 bdon mangola w ma3nda mushkela fa awal mara y6lb mna shay w abd malna 7g nrda! Y3ni o5t lina your 10 years old boyfriend can wait. 

Lina: wj3!! 

Deema: haw? 

Om hala: lina 9degtk la7ga 3aleha byom thanii kalmeha w ajli el6al3a

Lina: bs mama e7na mara7 ng3d hena y3ni klha kam yom w bnro7 san diego! W elbnt mara7 tg3d lain ram6'an zyna!

Hala: elbnt.. -in a low voice-

Lina-death stare- 

Abo hala: la ya mama cancalna 7jz san diego 

Deema: haw!! Leh? 

Abo hala: shft ena mala da3i kthrat eltnagl w ana mafeni shadt swaga walla 6'ahrii m3d yt7ml sa3at

Lina: kaaafo!!

Hala: w3 salamt?

Lina: kli zg!

Deema: feeni wla fekk ya ba3d haldnya!! 

Abo hala: fe 3dwenkk ya ro7 abokk

Om hala-coughing- 

Abo hala: alah alah! 

We all laughed on how my mama coughed to get my dad's attention lol i want a relationship like my parents, they got married traditionally and they struggled at first but now i see how deeply my dad is in love with my mom. 

Allah lay7rmni. 

Deema: baba wsh rayk nro7 l7g el shooting eli r7nla elmra eli fatat? 

Hala: mta tha ma 76'rt ana?? 

Om hala-while sipping her orange juice-: mawdkom nro7 outlet ? 

Lina: la i'm sick of shopping 

Hala: yay i'm american 

Deema-tf6s '67k-: hala wsh thal7arsh????!!!

Abo hala: ha outlet wla shooting? 

Hala&deema: shooting! 

Lina: mabi! 

Abo hala: wsh tbe el7lwa? 

Lina-blushing-: ummmm.. 

Hala: baba traha matbi shay! Tst3b6 nro7 elshooting b3d outlet 3shan mama 

Deema: ee ana agol ketha kaman

I forgot about nawaf's disturbing existence for a while.

Don't get me wrong, i like him but this is getting so much of me , having someone 24/7 in your mind is kind of disturbing. It's only been 2 days and i already sense me getting attached to him(which is not what i expected at all i only went out because i thought i'd get out of my bubble, but oh bad idea), so i just need to slow and back down a bit for things to get smoothly w ketha. 

Lina: LAAAAA!!! Wsho eli bs? 

Abo hala: wsh tben ajal!!?

Baba getting mad at lina's weird mood was kind of not a good sign for the day, he's never mad but she gets on peoples nerves! She's my sister and i love her but she needs to stop acting so childish. 

Hala: lina! 

Deema: bnro7 bnro7 la t5afen! 

She meant spectrum. 

Lina-sigh-

Hala: elzbda ana 7amt kabdi mn el pancakes 

Abo hala: yala n7asb w n6la3 

We were done with our food dad payed the check and now we were heading to the shooting place deema suggested! 

I had my headphones on and nawaf's face started appearing in my head, i smiled about the thought of yesterday but then naah not so much. 

I had my headphones on and so much thoughts were killing me.

Do i want this? Getting out of my one year bubble? Ugh.

3G was working but i only use it when it's urgent y3ni.. Mdri i have this idea don't judge.. 

Anyways fat7t 3G w i found a DM mnh.. 

@nawafalx: bt6awlen? -2 hours ago- 

@halaalx: hey sorry for the late reply 

@nawafalx: no problem. 

Nothing interesting so I decided to close the 3G and just focus on how adele's voice was so heavenly. 

Deema: hey -hitting my shoulder- 

Hala-shaking her head as a yes-: 

Deema: btro7 lelshooting.. 

Mn il7ub ma 8atl! LOL.

Hala: tstahblen!!

Om hala: meen?

Deema: umm wa7da ma7bha.. 

Hala-laughing-

Lina-evil laugh-: wa'67!-in a whisper-

Deema: baba 3adi um nro7 makan thani!

I know how much deema loves him y3ni elwald mu 93'er ashk ena 9ay3 3ala golt'ha aked elnas klha t'3l6 bs y7taj yt2adb w ho mara7 ela l2n elo5t tweeted out ena we're going there.

Hala: la ana mshtahya shooting-smiling evilly- 

The shooting place was half an hour far so when we reached there we got our helmets baba took our guns and mama sat on the placed chairs and table sipping her coffee. 

Deema-taking her gun from baba-: wdi eb bndgya!

Abo hala: jarbi elmusdas enti bshoof mda 8wtkk yala!

Deema: a3jbkk w tshoof!

Abo hala-laughing and walking to wear lina was standing- 

Now i can tell deema whose standing right behind us staring at her in a very scary yet sexy way. 

Hala: shit shit deema la tlfen trah wrak. 

Deema-ytgalb wjhaha w tlff-

Hala: ana wsh glt????!! -ignoring them both-

Deema: shit ga3d y36eni n6'rat t3ali 

Hala: agol enti mstaw3ba baba w mama hena?

Deema: a9lan mara7 aro7 majnona!

He walked closer to where we were standing.. 

Walking past deema's ear i heard him whisper"two words please"

I gave deema a look"no"

after he walked a few steps away, somewhere no one can see him.. Deema ignored me and her mind and shouted so mama can hear her "mama bro7 il7mam tra"

Lina: i'm coming 

Hala: yalel el amrekya ana wyak nro7 yala

Deema-thank you smile-

I don't want my sister to end up getting hurt from a jerk????! Or madri he's old enough to propose lesh mayje y56bha yry7on nafs'hom maknt atw83a y8n3ha bhals'hola wla makan r7na lel shooting! 

After me and lina came from the bathroom 6b3an el7ywana gf6at deema already but i threatened her if she said a word i'm gonna tell my dad about her whatsocalled love. 

 Abo hala: haaaa jahzen? Yala 

Lina: baba abi a9awb 3ala elb3eeda 

Abo hala:yala wreniii

Lina: hala hala 9awreni w ana a9awb

Hala: video?

Lina: la la 9ora

Hala: pose

Lina: 7lwa?

Abo hala: wra ma t9awben?

We all laughed and then lina got her targets very well i got mine too but just thinking that my sister might be hugging or god knows what that guy frightened me. She has to come back wla ahli by6e7on 3aleha w bttwar6..

Abo hala: haw wen deema? Kl tha 7mam bagelna 3 t9webat klmeha hala

Hala: ee yala al7en adg

Ringing.. 

Hala: wenk enti !!! Aboy bythb7k!

Deema-laughing-: aaah i'm on my way babeh

Hala: la 7awl wla 8wah ela belah -laughing- zain yala

Deema: maabi akon ela ma3k-singing-

I ended the call gabl ma 6ablti tro7 feha..

She came back and we were done with our shooting class with our oh so pro dad, hahaaha!

-car-

Om hala: 9ra7a mafeni shadt outlet ybella tarrkez abi a5mmmmh kla

Deema-laughing-: nro7 bukra ajal

Hala: eee 5ala9 nrja3 al7en trta7on w n6la3 nt3'ada? 

Lina was sleeping in the back, deema was happy and hyper ldrjt 3adi t9r5"a7bh". 

Abo hala: 5ala9 zain nt3'ada bl m63m el yabani eli blsog eli gdamna

p.f changs. Heaven. 

Hala: zain

I plugged the headphones and a random song started, You know the shivers you get when listening to a song that holds SO much memories? I tried ignoring the memories and the sound inside of me. Hold yourself hala. 

I decided that i'm going to switch the 3G back on and check twitter to take my mind off for a while. 

-Dm's-

@nawafalx: 6fshaaaan:( -3 hours ago-

@nawafalx: wenk mu glti btkonen b fashion island? -1 hour ago-

@nawafalx: halo? -10 minutes ago-

@halaalx: hey, i'm sorry about that my 3G was switched off dad's rules :p

Lying..:p 

@nawafalx: heeeey!<3 

@halaalx: hii, kaifk esh swait alyom?

@nawafalx: nothing much r7t fashion island ana wl3yal t3'adena b cheesecake factory w al7en bl hotel

@nawafalx: and you?

@halaalx: went target shooting with the family:p

@nawafalx: ya wld!!

@halaalx: LOL

@nawafalx: t3rfen?

@halaalx: my dad says i'm a pro

@nawafalx: prove it;)

@halaalx: i'll knock your head

@nawafalx: 6ol e9b3i w bt6lgenha brasi:p? Btje eb b6ni

@halaalx: LOL!! i'm not that short

@nawafalx: i love how short you are:p<3

@halaalx: your opinion wasn't needed:p

@nawafalx: a77

@halaalx: what do you have in mind?

@nawafalx: literally?

@halaalx: emhm

@nawafalx: "abi ashof 9warha b instagram"

@halaalx: 3ala bala6a ketha:p

@nawafalx: glti literally shswelk:p 

@halaalx: lol

@nawafalx: what's in urs

@halaalx: blank

@nawafaalx: liar

@halaalx: "i feel bad"

@nawafalx: why is that?

@halaalx: i'd tell u but i'd have to kill u afterwards

@nawafalx: will it make you feel better? If yea? Then law tben eshngenii ahm shay tkalmi w goli. 

@halaalx: it's nothing xx

@nawafalx: 3ala ra7tk. 

Maknt abi a5th w a36i m3ah, i don't know a7s t3dait 7doodi i went out b a5r el lail m3ah and joked and woke up next morning like nothing happened and that kills me, i'm gonna back off and just let him go. I don't know. Uf abi amot. 

The day passed normally i wasn't sending Dm's so much y3ni i was bs mu eli a5th w a36ii lma he got bored w sakrna elsalfa my sisters and i had launch at 6PM with the parents then deema and i went back to the hotel with nothing to do i stayed for 3 hours watching PLL with deema in the background repeating whatever happened to her at the shooting place, lina was still at fashion island with one of her friends

We were staying at the island hotel so that's why my parents approved on her going alone. 

At 9 she came back w rj3 elez3aj.

Lina: yala btrawsh w algakom jahzen ok a5wati?

6be3y ena she's the youngest ?

Deema: yala ana balbs

Bnafs elwagt i got a DM mn nawaf..

@nawafalx: ha the bench:p? 

@halaalx: lol esh?

@nawafalx: ashofk henak, spectrum bench mu hotel

@halaalx: aaah no i'm to tired to go

@nawafalx: salamt?

@halaalx: la bs t3bana ba3d elyom 

I know i know! All i did was shoot, bs i didn't want to face him. I feel awkward. 

@nawafalx: oh ajal erta7ii w nshofk bukra:p

@halaalx: Hopefully:p

@nawafaalx: um, 6yb 3adi 6alb?

@halaalx: hala?

@nawafaalx: enzleli bl lobby.. 

@halaalx: i can't baba t7t

@nawafalx: esh rgm 3'rftkom 6yb?

@halaalx: leh:p?

@nawafalx: bsyr 3alek

@halaalx: lma y6l3on 5wati 

@nawafalx: ok

After an hour lina and deema were done and ready to go!

Deema: aked matben tjen?

Hala-shaking her head as a no-

Lina: 5leha elmun3zla hathi

Deema-talking to lina-: 6yb enti enzli w ana bal7gk bad5l el7mam 

Lina: tgdren tgolen e6l3i b7aki hala tra 3adi may9ay7

LOOOOOL!!

So when lina went out deema approached me w jalast bl6awla eli gdamii.

Deema: esh 9ayr shay?

Hala: la bs mabi ashofa 

Deema: why not?

Hala: i feel bad

Deema: leh?

Hala: ma3rf bs 

Deema: spit it

Hala: y3ni ams bl lail 6la3t m3ah w mshaina around w maka2n 9ayr shay so i feel bad

Deema: define bad

Hala: bad bad ldrjt a7s abi ant7r

Deema: l2nk 6la3ti wla l2n Mm..?

Hala: ee 

Deema-hugging hala-: 5ala9 swii eli yray7kk

Hala-hugging back-: shokran a7bkk

Deema: njeblk shay?

Hala: mara7 tlgon shay 

Deema: law lgaina jbtlk

Hala: 6yb shokran 

Deema: bye 

Hala: bye sakri elbab zain law sma7ti

.. To tell him that my sisters are out or not, that was the question! Two hours passed so now it's 11. 

@nawafalx: ha 6la3w:p

@halaalx: ee bs esh btje? Tra i'm a mess 

Please don't come. 

@nawafalx: no mara7 aji don't worry

@halaalx: umm ok

@nawafalx: <3 

15 minutes later, i heard knocks on the door i checked mn thak elmakan w 6l3 a7d mn 7gen el hotel w m3ah bag. 

Hotel guy: ms hala alx? 

Hala: um yes?

Hotel guy-smiling-: this is for you. 

Okay.. 

A plain white bag. 

I closed the door after thanking the hotel guy i jumped on the bed and opened the bag. 

2 red velvet cupcakes and one red rose. Talk about simple cuteness. Ugh! But no.

A letter"thought i'd cheer you up. 

Love, eli la7gkk llhotel."

Aw:c 

-dm's-

@halaalx: awww! Thank you very much <3 

Don't overreact and don't be sooo cold hala! N9 n9. 

@nawafalx: did nothing ;*

@halaalx: <3! 

@nawafalx: so what are you doing? Jalsa l7alk?

@halaalx: watching PLL

@nawafalx: wsh tha

@halaalx: pretty little liars:p

@nawafalx: series? 

@halaalx: ee 

@nawafalx: ah 

@halaalx: w ent esh ga3d tswe? 

@nawafalx: atfrj tv

@halaalx: Mar7t ?

:o

@nawafalx: wsh ywdeni w galbi mara7? 

Ya alah.. 

@halaalx: yalla ana bnam t9ba7 3ala 5air.. <3 

@nawaalx: w enti mn ahla<3 

-after 3 days-

And it's been like this for 3 days. 

I go out to wherever in the morning, come back at 6 watch few episodes of my favorite series. 

Lina starts nagging when it reaches 9:30-10.. Not mentioning the adorable dm's i was getting from nawaf.. But i wasn't sure if i was ready! 

Deema: ya 7ywana elbsi 6yb!! Ana ma ashofk ga3da tt7rken yomk t'hawshen

Hala: ento ma t6fshon? Kl yom? Dawam?

Lina: wallah etha enti fek 7alt en3zal 3an il3alm e7na mafena

Hala: agol lina abd mali 5lgk

Lina: mta gd 9arlk 5lg a9lan?

Deema: engl3i elbsi wla b6la3 w a5lek!

Deema was already dressed and ready so awal mara7t lina lel7mam she started her daily speech. 

Deema: ela mta? 

Hala: ela mdri!

Deema: tra 6'alma elwald m3ak 7ram klyom ga3d bl hotel 3shank!

Hala: ymkn klam bs!

Deema: la ana ma shft a7d rjla maksora b spectrum!

Hala: glteha rjla maksora! Y7taj yrta7!

Deema: 6yb ymkn ma shfteh enti fak el cast?

Hala: deema 

Deema: 3shani bs elyom.. 

Hala: law sma7ti 5ala9 i promise bukra bro7.. 

Deema: ams glti nafs elshay!

Hala: 5ala9

Deema: eff mnk 

Hala: 5ala9 go have fun w shofi esh el7ub jayblk-laughing-

Deema: engal3i-laughing- 

Hala: yala bangl3.

They went out and An hour passed and then i got a DM.

@nawafalx: esh what's your excuse elyom:p?

@nawafalx: t3bana? Wla r7mti omk ga3da l7alha wla malgeti shay tlbsenh? 

@halaalx: la bs ma asht'hi

Eff, i am feeling bad eni bs at9dad but i don't know what's going to happen if i actually took a step through this! Y3ni he's a sweet gentleman seriously, w 3ala kthr ma aslklh ela ena he comes back everytime y7awl w eli ywa'67 ena 9dg ybeni mu l3b law '3airh by6fsh, bs ma a3rf i'm afraid i do it the wrong way.. 

@nawafalx: bkaifk 

@halaalx: ent btro7

@nawafalx: 9ra7a 6fsht mn elga3da 

@halaalx: ah have fun ajal

@nawafalx: <3

Kaan wdi agola ena nswe shay aw shay bs mdri ya5i fe sh3oor thab7ni!!!! 

W eli yzedh ho:')

@nawafalx: hala trust me i'm not a bad guy, walla i'll treat you well you don't have to push me 

@nawafalx: we'll take it slow if you want

@nawafalx: tra 9a7 eni mfhi 24 sa3a bs a3rf 6regat 7akyk w a3rf ena fe shay m6'aygk. 

@nawafalx: etha hatha elshay m6'aygk, us.. I'll back off

7araaaaam, no no. 

@halaalx: NO! At all. 

@nawafalx: what's bothering you then? Leh faj2a byom w lela t3'ayrti 

@halalx: ma t3'ayrt bs y3ni i don't know 7sait i took it too fast

@nawafalx: we'll take it slow<3 

@halaalx: good :*

@nawafalx: t3ali t7t.. Abek

Aro7 wla la?.. 

-To be continued-