Fifty one.

A really big warm "pillow" hug goes to my long distance best friend. I love you so so so so so(endless) so so much, you don't understand. Thank you again!<3 -she helped me with khalids parts.-

Short? I know.

Khalid is cute? I know:')

When is the next chapter? Monday. -or maybe if I get a lot of good feedbacks I write another one today.-

I love you all thank you for making me happy! Enjoy reading<3
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-khalid-
It feels like I have nothing to live for, nothing to make me happy, madri.. Nothing.
Abeer kant tbe elsog, w elswag m3 omii fa 6ab3an ana at7aawl rafeeq b36' ela7yan, I didn't know why and where she wanted to go all I knew was enha btro7 lilsog m3 9degat'ha... Elbnat w 6al3t'hom ma t5la9!!!
*in the car*
Khalid: ela b3eer meen bykon m3ak?

Abeer:elbnat

Khalid: ee asma2

Abeer-bbming-: mu sh3'lk

Khalid-lifting one eyebrow-: arj3k elbet trra!!

Abeer: maha anoud basma sama yara haya sh

Khalid: haya?

Abeer: ee bnro7 3shan ashya2 elt5aroj

Khalid-messing up his hair-: aah

Abeer: 3adi ya5i get over it 5alaa9

Khalid: ee shd3waa 3adi

Abeer: zaain

Khalid-sigh-

I dropped her and I went roaming in riyadhs streets, wandering what it would be like if we ended up together.. Cheesy? Jalast 3 sa3at bs adoor she called me after those 3 hours telling me she was done I was close to the place so it only took me 7 minutes.

I waited for more 5 minutes and then she came out with 4 girls on the back, I tried my best not to look at them knowing that haya might be one of them but I couldn't I just couldn't.. I saw her, walla el36'eem it felt like she was walking in slow motion like nothing was around me like there was no music playing so loud the whole world was quite and I'm not exaggerating, she looked sad her eyes looked sad she wasn't laughing and smiling like always, she was the happy girl and I've changed that.

I saw abeer walking towards my car, haya and one of their friends were walking with her TOWARDS MY CAR!!!!!! bs masho gdam, abeer rkabat w mshw mn gdam elsyara, haya stared for a second she flashed me a weak smile and then she walked away, goodbye for the 10th time
I didn't say a word to abeer and she didn't talk either, silence is way better than exploding.

-haya-
I didn't knew it was him. If I knew? I wouldn't approach his car not even come a bit near it I couldn't handle my smile it just drew on my face the moment my mind understood that he was actually in front of me!!! He wasn't looking bad, but not as good as he was before. He was depressed? I guess that's the word.

The moment I got into the car I broke down, sama w basma aklooha... Girls, do you know the heart pain you feel after leaving someone? Yes. It hurts.

I don't use my phone like I used, I check it every now and then unless I was expecting a message or a call.. The DING, dinged and it means I've received a message. Please no. Don't. Stop.

Myonly:
You look sad and frustrated, do you eat?

Me:
Same goes to you, u looked depressed

Myonly:
Answer me, do you eat? Taklen?

Me:
Mta ma eshtahet, why do u care?

Myonly:
Haya wajhk 9ayr 36'am bs!!! Don't do this to yourself

Yes I don't eat so much, in the past days I lost 3 kilos and although I don't eat I don't feel hungry.
It cute that he knows me best:') he knows whenever I face a problem I stop eating, I find it hard to eat, I lose my appetite and I find food tasteless.

Me:
Inshallaah.

Myonly:
leh g3da tklmeny ketha?

Me:
I told you, etha tbeni I get over you don't text me and u did!!! T7sa it will help? NO!!!! You're the one who pushed me I didn't want this to happen I wasn't ready!!!!!!!

I sent this message and I waited for almost 10 minutes but he didn't reply.

Me:
You didn't even try, you didn't risk yourself and propose. You just assumed, maybe if you tried things would change!! Maybe if you loved me enough you wouldn't give up.
I risked myself for you khalid!! I went out with you every time you asked me, I gave you everything and what do I get in return? Nothing.

I was to afraid to send the message but basma took my phone and pressed the send button. I dropped both basma and sama to their houses and I went back to mine.
I got into my room I switched on the AC, I wore my favorite sweats and khalids hoodie:') remember the hoodie? Yeah ma mdakom tnsooon... A7lf ena lsa feha re7ta? And if you're wondering la mama wla baba s2loni lesh labsa jacket 3yal, l2ni I'm addicted to hoodies.

So I waited for khalid to text me back....
1 hour.




2 hours



THREE HOURS...



Three hours and 2 minutes..
DING.

Myonly:
Haya I'm really sorry if I made u feel that way. I never meant to hurt you, ever. You know how much I love you, and I wouldn't live feeling guilty because I made u feel this way, I swear I love you. I just don't want to put so much hope when I propose, when I know what you're dad's answer is gonna be.. I don't want us to enjoy what we never could have. Now even though I know maybe someday I'll regret doing this, but I'm gonna show you how much I love you.. I'm proposing, but promise me you won't cry when your dad says it.

Oh my god.

Wait, what?

-to be continued-

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