In A Heartbeat Ch.41

I Don't get more attached? Bkl hals'hola!?

Ghalia: i don't get it!? Esh 9ar faj2a? 

Turki: i'm bad 

Ghalia: wsh fek!!!!!!! 

 

Ghalia: ta3ban? You don't want me anymore? Tell me esh!?

Turki-holds ghalia's hand-: i want you!!! Bs i'm not good for you.

Ghalia: you're the one for me wsh fek!!!-higher tone-

Turki: hadi 6ayb!

Ghalia-gets up-: shlon tbeni ahdi w ent mu wa'67 turki!!!!????!!

I knew that he won't be able to tell me the reasons face to face. if he has any a9lan.. So i got up heading to god knows where he followed me.

Turki-sigh-: can we leave this for tomorrow w nkaml yomna!?

Ghalia-stopped walking-: nkaml yomna? -fake laugh- sure!

Turki: 6ayb arj3k ?

Ghalia: i know my way!

I can take the bus. Ashwa.

Turki: 3'alia!

Ghalia: turki leave me alone 5ala9 

Turki-stops walking- 

I continued walking hoping he wouldn't lose hope and he comes after me again i know i sound childish but i really wanted him to come after me.

By that his sight faded by the crowded  streets and when i saw nothing of him i broke down. Tears. Broken heart.

Calling> norti

Ghalia-crying really hard-: noura

Noura: wsh fek!!!!

Ghalia: wenkom?

Noura: starbucks downtown bsr3a wsh fek

Ghalia: okay baji -still crying-

Noura: enti wenk!! Wen turki!?

Ghalia: ana 3nd elmakatib el -cries- kthera shway w aji

I walked there w ana wallah ma adri wsh 9ar bl6'ab6 lesh 9ar wsh 5alah ketha! Obviously don't get attached more means"don't get attached so the break up can be easier." 

I reached starbucks downtown and found fahad and noura on the right corner the moment fahad saw me crying his face expressions changed, noura came running to me she hugged me and i cried even more.

Noura-while hugging ghalia-: shshshshsh!! 5ala9 hadi hadi 

Ghalia: gal esh gal don't get attached -in a crying voice-

Noura-letting go of the hug-: t3ali emshi njls w fahmeni

We walked to where fahad was standing we sat down and i started telling them what happened.

Ghalia: ana ma adri y3ni he was acting really weird the past few days!! Bs maknt adri leh -crying voice-

Noura: ymkn he has a good reason!

Ghalia: what good reason noura 3ab6 elsalfa? 

Noura: t3rfen turki abd may3rf ytna8sh bmwa6'e3 zy ketha face to face ana mst3'rba ena ft7 m3ak elmaw6'o3!!

Ghalia: that's why trakta w mshait!!

Noura: kan rja3ti m3ah ymkn blsyara t'hda elomor!

Ghalia: ma abi ma abi! I want explanations w ho ma3nda 3'air i'm bad!!! Bad in what turki? Bad in what-lower tone-

Eli esta3'rbta akthr ena fahad abd ma 7aka wla kelma all he did was play with the forks and the napkins. 

Ghalia: wsh salfat 9a7bk?-looking at fahad-

Fahad: 3elmi 3elmk.

Ghalia: don't lie to me

Fahad: i'm not

Ghalia&noura: fahad!

I knew he had something to say.

Fahad: ina lelah

Noura: ray7 elbnt and spit it out!

Fahad: he's not good enough for you 3'alia walah! He's not what you think he is 

Ghalia: wsh t5rb6!

Fahad: ana mara7 a7ki ay shay zyada elklam 3nda law b3'a bygolk all i'm saying is he's not good for you and you're more than this to him.

Bl6'ab6. Nafs. Ma. Gal. Turki.

M7af6'a elklam..?eff.

Ghalia: you guys confuse me -gets up-

Noura: 3ala wain!?

Ghalia: bus stop

Noura: bla 3ab6 

Ghalia: tw9loni ma agol la 

Noura: fahod mshaina?

Fahad: mshaina

We headed to where fahad parked his car and i was being really quiet l2n i really had a massive headache going on w makan wdi yzed l2n law 7kait enhart! 

We hopped in and that's when i got out my phone:') w laitni ma 6la3t.

-bbm-

Turki: 3'alia alx 

Turki: you have the choice tben al3ab 3alek w agolk mafe ela enti b7yati w nkaml ka2na ma 9ar shay  wla tben agolk ena ana mu zy eli 7a6ta bmu5kk i'm nothing.

Turki: okay ma akthb 3alek our first month makan fe ela enti bs ba3den 9ar w laita ma 9ar 3'alia wallah a7bkk wallah wallah wallah bs i can't lie to you w a6yrk fog elsma w ana a7aki 3 3'airk!!

Turki: i have friends "girls" bs m7d fe galbi 3'airk m7d b7yati mnhom bgdrkk 3ndi. bs i'm bad, and you're more than this to me. 

Turki: ana law bakml m3ak i'll make you do more bad stuff w 5ala9 ana mabekkk ketha wallah 3'alia

Turki: ana b5arbk wallah 3'alia ba5rbkk ymkn fahad ma gal shay wla noor wla noura wla ibrahim bs 9adgeni b5arbkkk akthr:')!

Turki: a3rf ena eli ga3d agola mub ga3d ytratb fe mu5kk w ana asf sten mara!!!

Turki: wallah law agdr tzawjtk elyom gabl bukra mn kthr ma enti perfect wallaaah atrkhom el3 bs i can't. I promise you bat3'ayr bs not as soon as you think

Turki: Ana a7md rabi klyom eni shftk blm6ar w hz2tenii bnfs alwgt nadm eni 3algtk feni akthr asf 3'alia walah 

Turki: ana mt3alg fek w 7alti 7ala bs ma agdr 

Turki: what i'm doing is for your own good, because i love you this much i wanted you to know before anything big happens. 

Turki: e3rfi eni magd wla ba7b a7d kthrk, bs i don't deserve you. 

I'm numb. 

I didn't even shed a tear. 

My heart isn't aching.

I want to slap him, hit him, scream at him and then hug him really tight. 

My reply was as cold as ice.

Ghalia: :')

Ghalia: ma adri wsh agol

Ghalia: give me a month at3awd and then leave me 

Ghalia: i'm so hurt right now that i want to hug you

Ghalia: but you don't deserve shit 

Ghalia: thank u 

Incoming call> t<3

Turki: sam7eni

Ghalia: alah ysam7k

Ghalia: now if you want me to get unattached you should stop calling me.

Turki: i will try

Ghalia: bye

Turki: i love you.

I ended the call. This happened on our way to my apartment so fahad and noura kano sam3en the conversation.

The fact that he's not what i saw him, hurts. :')

The fact that the mysterious MY* mysterious, sweet, caring, loving turki is not going to be in my life after this, H U R T S. 

If he wants me to let go of him there will be no more phone calls.

No more late night coffee.

Late night walks.

Late night chit chats.

Skype calls.

I love you's.

No more 3'aloyti. 

No more nothing.

If this has to end all of these things should stop. And i don't know how.

Noura: tben anzl m3ak?

Ghalia: ee

Ghalia: shokran fahad

Fahad: wsh d3wa etha b3'aito shay dgo 3lay

Noura: inshallah

It was still 4pm.

I got out of the car, and acted normal except that the dizziness came back, thankfully noura was one foot behind me so 3ala 6ol masktni.

Ghalia: shit shsalfti ana-sigh-

Noura: emshi bs

Ghalia-double sighs-: akrha akrha akrha akrha akrha

I was going like"akrha" all the way to my apartment until we reached there 

Noura: a7lf ena mu mn glbk?

Ghalia: mu mn glbi.

Noura: 9ar shay gabl el phone call? 

Ghalia: laita ma 9ar

Ghalia: 5thi -hands her the phone-

Noura-reading-: omg

Ghalia-opens the door-: i'm numb trani

Noura: ejlsi blkanb bajeblk shay tshrbena -still reading-

Ghalia: ma asht'hi

Noura: orange juice 

Noura: oh my god! Akrha w3 baj7!

Ghalia: shswi ba3d 

Noura: wait enti leh mu ga3da t9e7en?!

Ghalia: super power of numbness 

Noura-walks to ghalia-: hug?  

Ghalia-frown-: please 

He 5amtni wla ma 5amtni, hena ana enhart. Hena 7sait 9dg 5ala9 fe shay byt3'ayr! Bs i shouldn't over react. But it happened in the weirdest hurtful ways...   

Noura: galbi w 3umri enti 

Ghalia-laugh and cries-: awal shay gali law 9ar shay baina btkamlen wla la? Glt akeed bakaml bs now i changed my mind this course w barj3

Noura-lets go of the hug-: mnjdk!!!!

Ghalia: walla 

Noura: twgfen musta8blk 3shan wld!!!

Ghalia: i have other reasons 5lga mama mu 3ajbha elwa'63

Noura: i hate you for doing this to yourself 

Noura: la tst3jlen bl8rar w fakri zain w est5eri

Ghalia: i will 7bebti don't worry law tben tro7en ro7i 3adi i want some alone time

Noura: galbi enti 5ala9 call me when you need me 

Ghalia-hugs noura again-: a7bk

Noura: ana akthr

She walked out of the apartment and the thoughts that kept coming to my head made me cry just a little more.

I wasn't like that, turki came and he changed everything and i know mn my friends experiences ena when this door opens it will never close. But i will.

As long as it's not turki i don't want anybody else.

I love him. But i hate the fact that he's a player.

I hate him but i love him. 

I didn't know what to do, I was crying like a freak all alone and I needed to calm down.

I called maha crying hysterically because she's the only person who will know what to do.

Ghalia-crying-: ma-haa

Maha: bsmelah 3lek wsh feekk!!

Ghalia: tuurki

Maha: 7bebti fahmeni esh feek goleli wsh sawalk? Everything will be okay walla

Ghalia: can we skype al7en w afhmk?

Maha: akeed yallaa go wash your face w I'll be waiting

I washed my face and sat on my bed and started skyping with Maha:

Maha: goleli kl shay mn elbedaya 

I told her everything and I read what turki said on bbm out loud, and it felt like I was stabbing my own heart. Reading those words in a loud voice made me realize how can guys be such jerks.

Maha: '3alia 9adgeni kl el3yal zy kitha w ashwa ena e3traflk 5era wallah el3a'9em 5era ma tdren wsh mumkin 9ar law kamlti m3ah w you're clueless of what he was doing

By that time I was more calm and maha's comforting words made me feel so much better, I'm lucky to have her.

We started talking about other things, to get my mind off of turki. For a minute I forgot about him and what he said and eventually I slept my worries away.

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Always remember, i have more surprises to come.

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