Monday, March 17, 2014

Here and there Ch.15 (FINALE!!)

I did get used to it after 3 months of his disappearance, it scared me to pieces, how can my faisal disappear this way? I wished eni arj3 elwagt lb3eeeed w ma ad5l eljam3a ymkn this way kan e7na lsa n7ki? Aw ymkna wagtaha ga3d yhz2ni? Walla atmna t'hze2h w atmna shainh w klh.  I won't lie and say that i lived like it's nothing. It was aching me. For 3 months nothing woke me up accept my tears and the nightmares. i really missed waking up on skype's ringtone aw his 5 missed calls bs 3shan ho 3ndh 8na3a ena 9ot el jawal a3la mn 9ot ringtone skype.. 
I miss waking up on his voice. 
"Nomt ahl elkahf shd3wa" 
"Wa7shtni yakthr ma tnamen"
"Wala law eni briyadh ma atrkk" 
..
The first semester passed better than i thought, i tried getting my grades higher in the last finals w el7amdellah i did. 
Ahlii 6b3an la76'o enii jdn mt3'ayra w elnafsya mn3dma w i used to skip lots of classes b3thr eni ma nmt w law r7t mara7 arkz, t'hz2t kther b3den f8do elaml ena mafe majal y7snon mn wa'63i w lshay byadi. 

-ejazt ben eltermen- 

Abo nouf: nouffff t3aleli felmaktb 

Ana haljumla tgm6nii. 

I entered the room w ana yadi 3ala galbi must7el aboy ynadeni ketha.. 

Abo nouf: b7akek bmaw6'o3 beni w benk w omk mfro6' matdri len y9er klshay 

Nouf: ok

Abo nouf: eg3di la twgfen fog rasii

Nouf-laughing-: 6yb

I sat w lsa el5of ma6a7, mdri by7akeni b esh y3ni!

Abo nouf: tdren ya mama eni ra3ii galb w doctor mus6fa lh shahren y8n3 feni eni aro7 aswe 8as6ra fe america 

Nouf-t5ngha el3abra-: haw baba w eli swait'ha bl9aif!?? 

Abo nouf: esm3eni bs la tga63enii 

Abo nouf: el3amleya mafe as'hl mnha wla 3amlyat lwaz bs eli b3daha y6wl ya5th 3 sh'hor fa ana ba6'6r ag3d 3 sh'hor henak

Abo nouf: 6yb w leh ma ttswa hena?

Abo nouf: el3laj henak a7sn

Nouf: klh mn eld5an!! T3bna w e7na 
ngolk ya baba!

Abo nouf: 8aadr allah w ma sha2 fa3l

Abo nouf: mub hathi salftna

Nouf: ajal wsho ba3d? 

Abo nouf: ana mla76' enk mu mrta7a bjam3tk w glnalk ena eljam3a hathi mb naf3tlk bs ma sm3ti klamii 

Nouf: ee bs ana bdait bs7b mlfi lsultan

Abo nouf: gabl ma ts7benh wsh rayk w he fkra fa86 w elray lk 

Nouf: esh? 

Abo nouf: dam ga3dti m6wla w matw83 omk bttrkni l7ali zy ela6fal, tjen m3ay ta5then course etha erta7ti tkamlen ba3di w etha ma3jabk elwa'63 mn bdayt elsana eljdeda tnglen malfk lsultan 

Nouf: haw

Abo nouf: haw-laughing-

Nouf: baba mnjdk wla tstahbl? Ga9di y3ni faj2a

Abo nouf: mama 7bebti etha matben mub mlzoma bs kl abo ybe elzain lbnt'h

Nouf: bs wsho ketha 3ala 6ool klshay y9er bdon ay mu8dmat w 9degati w mama w 3zozi? 

Abo nouf: wallaaa a5r 5bri elbnt ttrja aboh mub elabo ytrja bnt'h tdrs bara-laughing-

Nouf-laughing-: 9adg wala ana fe 7alt 9adma 

Abo nouf: fakrii feha w est5erii w el8rar 8rark

Nouf: inshallah bs y3ni shlon ay jam3a bad5l?

Abo nouf: enti etha 8rarti y9er 5air

Elsalfa t9dm, byom w laila aboy y8rir y3alj bara w ybeni aji m3ah w wen america?! Woho.
Awal mn ja 3ala bali.. Faisal 6b3an but i ignored the thought of him and called shahad. 

Shahad: hi babez 

Shahad: wsh fes daga sten mara ljeti rasi

Nouf: shahad!! 

Shahad: yakrhi lthal nabrh wsh fek???

Nouf: t5yli baba taw wsh ga3d ygoli

Shahad: ga3da at5yl!

Nouf-laughing-: lmaw6'o3 ma y'67k mnjdi 

Shahad: e7kiii!!

Nouf: t3rfen ena ra3i galb right?

Shahad: right

Nouf: byro7 y3alj b america

Shahad: okay 

Nouf: w ybeni aji m3ah

Shahad: omg

Nouf: l2nh y7sni mu mrta7a bldrasa hena w "men maybi lzain lbnt'h"

Shahad: tstahblen

Nouf: 8smbilah w bs 3ndi hal ejaza a8rir feha! 

Shahad: la 7asha movie!!! 

Nouf: shahad 

Shahad: listen listen so2al w abi jawab sre3 jawab bdon "bs ena" 

Nouf: ok

Shahad: tben wla matben?

Nouf: abi

Shahad: twakli 3ala alah

Nouf: la mu mnjdk

Shahad: la mnjdi 

Nouf: shahaaaaad 

Shahad: nouf abok bnafsa jay ygolk t3ali m3ay 

Nouf: adri

Shahad: fa y3ni tro7en 

Nouf: w a9lan gali ena bs adrs course etha ma 3jabni elwa'63 rj3t

Shahad: mumtaz!! Y3ni term wa7d mnha t3'ayren jaw mnha tg3den m3 abok w mnha drasa b3ed 3n alriyadh 

Nouf: you make it sound so easy!! 

Shahad: it's easy bs ahm shay ahm shay tt2kden ena mu bnafs wilaayt faisal. 

Nouf: t9dgen mn kthr el9adma ma sa2lt wen bs matw83 ena b his state 

Shahad: wsh ydrek

Nouf: e7sas 

Shahad: t2kdi

Nouf: i don't care etha 9rna bnafs elmdena law bnafs eljam3a.. 

Shahad: nouf ehjdi

Nouf: mabi it's been 3 months shahad i want to see him

Shahad: 3ala asas you used to see him everyday gabl

Nouf: i used to call him every day and text him all day 

Shahad: okay

Nouf: elzbda mayhm 

Shahad: 6yb est5erii 

Shahad: w shofi wsh y9er m3k

Nouf: inshallah

-2 days later- 
9arli yomain ast5er bl9alat w bldo3a2, w mash lsa madri wsh abiii.. Bs lazm a8rir. 

Om nouf: mama nouf t3ali abok ybek

Yarabeh.. 

Nouf: 6yb balbs w bajii-screaming-

I just came out of the shower and i don't know about you bs i stay in my towel for hours after the shower, i was checking my phone the moment mama screamed i threw the phone got dressed quickly and ran downstairs. 

Om nouf: blmaktb

Nouf: 6yb..

M7sseni ena baba obama, ma ngablh ela blmaktb.

I knocked the door w dar3mt. 

Abo nouf: hala bbnti hala

Nouf-kissing his head- 

Abo nouf: eg3di ya baba

Nouf: 8rart 5ala9

Abo nouf: mashallah sre3 sre3-laughing-

Nouf: 3shan nhay2 mama nafsyan

Abo nouf: omk tdrii

Nouf: 9dg???? 

Abo nouf: ttw83en byje yom aswe shay bdon ma agolha? -laughing- 

Nouf: matw83

Even though my dad travelled a lot, he wasn't the type of a father that spends so much time with his children wla mn hal7aki but he was always true to my mother, with his love and his words, throughout the years their sparkle of love never faded and i reallllly wished for the same. 

Abo nouf: 5ala9 ajal nbda blt7jez 

Nouf: okay y5awf lwa'63 

Abo nouf: l3'reb enk ma sa2lteni ay wlaya wla shay mu hamk ela elsafr-laughing- 

Nouf: mn l9dma wala mdri al7g as2l 3n esh 

Abo nouf-laughing-: bt3jbk arizona ajal

Nouf-sighs in relief-: ashwa 

Abo nouf: leh 

Nouf: la bs ena knt a7sb shay thani

Abo nouf: knt b7awl 3ala california bs ma 79lii

Nouf: laaa ashwa ma 7awlt!!

Nouf: a5af ma alga shay yst8blni ketha

Abo nouf: la la tlgen enti dwri elyom w shofi

Nouf: baba m7ssni ena elmas2la sahlaaa

Abo nouf: l2naha sahla bs law matkbrenha 

Nouf: 6yb 6b3an mara7 ad5l jam3a 

Abo nouf: fe 3ndhom academies jdn mumtaza 

Nouf: ersli el asma2 3ala whatsapp w i'll search them out

After i finished everything with my dad, booking a hotel for a week, (he already booked a small apartment but the time we arrive bykon bagelha esbo4 w t5l9) we did some academies search, i found a great one, w lmakan kwais.. W klshay w shaklha maktobaa w 5ala9 bagdm, r7t l3'urfti 3shan akml applying, mama came with me. 

Om nouf: ha wsh 8rarti

Nouf: hathani shway w i'll apply

Om nouf-t5ngha el3abra-: eee Zain tswen tg3den m3 abok 

Nouf: w ento tjona bl9aif w yaslaaam 

Nouf-opens her laptop-: wsh bnswe blejaza??

Om nouf-side hugging nouf-: kamli bs ashya2 eljam3a la7ga 3al ejaza

Nouf: mu jam3a ya mama

Om nouf: el academya mdri shsmha

Nouf-laughing-

Om nouf: bro7 lbnt 3amti huda alyom etha wdk tjen

Nouf: matw83 bs bshof ymkn asht'hi bl lail

Om nouf: 3zema kbera

Nouf: shakli hawt

Om nouf-laughing-: eli yray7k

... 
Bdait aktb w arsl w ashya2 w i totally forgot about my phone until i got a whatsapp and i remembered ena 3ndi jawal shft mn bra w 6l3 group fa rmeeta,, after half an hour or so i got bored of all of this w mskt jawali.. 
W letni maskta mn sa3ten. 

Faisal: اشتقت لأيام الهوى في جنابك.. 
-2 hours ago-

Wsh ynrd?!!!! 

Nouf: wna b3d. 

Faisal: hey<3 

Ro7ii. Rj3t. 

Nouf: hey 

Faisal: i missed you

Nouf: i did too

Faisal: kaifk?

Nouf: al7amdellah, yourself? 

Faisal: al7amdellah

Should i say something? 
No, no may7taj.. Let him do his thing. 

Faisal: kaif eljam3a? 3sak mashya?

Should i tell him about america? La ma7s 5ala9 may7taj..

Nouf: ee l7amdellah ent kaifha m3ak? 

Faisal: mashi 7alha t3'ayrt ashya2 kther bs bdait at28lm

Nouf: that's good

Faisal: yeah

Nouf: yeah

Faisal: i'm coming this summer

Nouf: i won't be here this time

Faisal: you won't?

Nouf: no.

Faisal: where then?

Nouf: 3ndkom

Faisal: then i'll stay

Nouf: don't

Faisal: i need you

Nouf: too late faisal

What did i just say!...

Faisal: it's never too late

Nouf: but it is

Nouf: it was good talking to you faisal

Faisal: i won't give up so easily

Nouf: you're the one who gave up on us, you destroyed all of this.

Faisal: mt7sf

Nouf: ma yfed

Faisal: zy magltlk etha mu elsana eljaya ba3d 10 snwat bt9eren le

Nouf: lol:')

Faisal: <3 

At last after 3 months.
I guess i messed up?
Wen klami abeh bshainh? Wen klami yom agol law yrj3li al7en brj3h w kn ma 9ar shay? 3jzt ar6'a. 
6b3an ga3dt sa3ten b3dh ahoojs w dmooo3 matwgf.. 
W el3'reb ena after 3 months he wrote a thought on path.. 

Faisal:" الله عطا الرياض من الحظ حظين زودن على نسمة هواها وجودك.." 

.. 
..
..
Moving on until the day my whole life changed again.. 

Om nouf-hugging nouf-: allaah y7f6'kom w yrdkom lee salmeeen b97a w 3afya yarab 

3zozi: baba la tnsa hadeti eli gltlk 3nhaaa

Abo nouf: abshr ya baba-kisses his forehead-

Nouf-side hugging 3zozi for the last time- 

I already said goodbye to shahad, reem and raghad. It was terrible. Aflam tt3b.

At last the driver took us to the airport and we did all the things we had to do, el7amdellaah ena lshna6 kano ray7en gablna bwagt wla kan el6yara ra7t 3lena l2n jena mt25r, shwayaa bs:) 

-airplane- 

Abo nouf: wsh nawya 3leh?

Nouf: esh?

Abo nouf: bljam3a ay t59oo9

Nouf: etha ja wagtaha rabi y7lha 

Sa3a w shway mn riyadh ldubai and it felt like ages. Yarab 9abrni 3ala el 16 hours eljayen. 

..
Our 16 hours flight took off and the first thing i did was watch a 2 hours movie and then 3 episodes of grey's and at last inspiration stroke and i've decided to write, write my heart out. 

شوقي لك اتعبني ارهقني و كن ماللهموم اخر و كن شوفي لك مستحيل.. 
تمنيتك تدري بالجديد و تمنيت فرحتك بهالخبر، جايه انا، صرت اقرب و صار وصلي اسهل. 
حسيتك دريت، و كن قلبي موصل بقلبك، وش جابني على طاريك؟ ولا ما فرقته من ذيك الساعه؟ 

And i stopped, i couldn't find any other words. It all faded. I tried sleeping the pain and the thoughts off and thankfully i did. 

Later on i woke up to find out that we'll be landing in half an hour, woooow that was fast! 
It felt good that i'll kind of start a new life, b3ed 3n ljaw eli flriyadh..
We landed in Arizona, at last.
I was excited, but the idea ena it's as hot as riyadh shwaya ak2btnii. 
But at least it's not riyadh.
--
-Moving on to one week later.-

I REALLY EXTREMELY LIKED HOW MY DAD AND I ARE "BUDDIES" NOW. 
I never knew my dad was that fun. 
He was never"elabo l7akr" a36anii 7uryti bkl shay, bl6'ab6 he gave me the green light to everything because he had the idea of me being "the 3agla daughter" el7amdellah y3nii LOL.

I don't start school until next week and dad's surgery is in 2 days so i'll be staying in the hospital for couple of days ba3daha babda drasa where there's some new people my dad wants me to meet.. 
His friends daughter goes to the same academy but she's been here since last year so she's used to all of this, we'll see how this goes. 

..

-Hospital- 
Nouf: ahln mama el7amdellah tawh 6al3

Om nouf: w kaifh 3sah 6yb?

Nouf: eee el7amdellah naym al7en ana 3ndh la t5afen

Om nouf-t5ngha el3abra-: w enti kaifk ya mama?

Nouf: mshtagtlk walla

Om nouf: shdi 7elk bs 5lek san3a w 5lek m3 abok 

Nouf-laughing slightly-: la tw9en 7re9!

Om nouf: yala ma a6wl 3alekk ya mama 6mneni lma abok y97a 

Nouf: inshallah 

Om nouf: entabhi 3ala nafsk w 9latk ya bnti

Nouf: inshallah a7bkk walla

Om nouf: wna a7bkk

And the call ended, few hours later my dad woke up al7amdellah and after that elham n9h 6a7 w baga ham el shay eli bro7la ba3d kam yom... 

-MOVING ON TO ONE WEEK LATER- 

My dad is out of the hospital al7amdellah but he's staying in bed for one more week, i'm going to start school today which is not very fun.

Abo nouf: trak mt25ra yalla ya baba

Nouf: wsh rayk as7b elyom w ajeblna f6oor?

Abo nouf: mn awlha ketha?? Arj3k lriyadh

Nouf-laughing-: amz7 -kissing his forehead- m3 elslama

I took my bag and went off, yaraab sahl. So scary how all of this happened so fast. 

My dad called me the moment i arrived. Fathers.

Abo nouf: ha lgaity bnt alx?

Nouf: baba tawnii wa9la

Abo nouf: tbeni aklm aboha?

Nouf: la la la ana bdwrha ma 3alekk

Ya. Elahi. 

Abo nouf: allah ywafgk 

Nouf: m3 elslama

I looked for the new students guide and after that i went to my first class, mafe l3b 3ala 6ool drasa, wsh jaaaabni lel6'aaaim. 

No saudis. Al7amdellah. 

Until a girl knocked on the door to call my name, oh the joy. Ya elahi typical 5aleji look.

Girl: Excuse me Mrs adams, they students council sent me to call a student 

Mrs adams: mhm?

Girl: ah nouf alx i guess that's her name? 

Nouf-raising her hand- 

Girl-looking at me-: eee i mean yes that's her 

Mrs adams: don't make troubles ms alx

Oh so hathii bnt 9a7b aboy.. 

Felwa: yes ma'am 

I went out and the moment we closed the door"la shukr 3ala wajb"

Nouf-laughing-: wsh elsalfa

Felwa: abd 6la3tk mn your first class that's all

Nouf: mnjdkk-laughing-

Felwa-smiling-

Nouf: mayswonli salfa?

Felwa: lsa hena ana fa 9dgenii mayswonlk salfa

Nouf-starts walking-: okay

Felwa-walks with her-: 3ala wain?

Nouf: coffee?

Felwa: coffee it is

I like her so far, but looks like she's a trouble maker.

Bjalsa wa7da 3raft 3nha klshay t8reban LOL. 
Felwa.
19 years old. 
She likes"bad boys"
No limits in life. Very bad fact.
She's been in a relationship with a guy for 4 years but he's still in riyadh.
She's not the type of a girl eli tro7en tshkenlha aw t7kenlha abd bs for fun he eli btdabrkk! 

Felwa: so listen dam awal esbo3 lk and you're still new w shaklk btg3den lkm? Nset aboy kam gali

Nouf: 3 months aw akml b america bs mu b arizona 

Felwa: why!! 

Nouf: abi california -laughing-

Felwa: 3ad a3rf 3yal kther kano ydrson henak w 7awlo hena ygolon awns 

Nouf: bs ana abi ldrasa akthr mn lwnasa-laughing-

Felwa: kln w 6mo7h

Nouf: bl6'ab6

Felwa: lzbda ena every friday night n6l3 e7na w group lmovies w b3daha ay makan aw shay lzbda it's so much fun and you should come 

Nouf: mdrii a7s faj2a ga6a

Felwa: abdn walla bynbs6on 3lek a3'lbhom 5lejen tra

Nouf: abd may7ms-laughing-

Felwa: i promise, btshkrenii. 

Nouf: bshoof bs2l baba

Felwa: give me your number 

3'reb mara ena she invited me 3ala 6ool w ketha a54t 3lay wla ana el3'reba? It scared me ena a3'lbhom 5lejen ana mdri hom bnat wla 3yal w esh yswon a9lan! 

I excused myself and headed to my second and last class for the day. 

When I came back i found my dad still asleep so i decided to go out and look around w ashof esh eli 7ooli, i walked around like a lost puppy until i got a message on path from a name that i don't really recognize, but i do know this face! 

 Faris: hello there!

Nouf: hey?

Faris: wen l3'ebat ma3d shfnak bljam3a mn b3d lmhalbya:p

Nouf: oh lol wna agol mshbha

Faris: hahaha kaifk?

Nouf: kwaisa w ent kefk?

Faris: mashi il7al

Nouf: thank you 3al mhalbya eli gabl 4 sh'hor lol, sorry i didn't thank you wagtaha insh3'lt b ashya2 kther

Faris: wsh d3wa bs

Nouf: my mama liked it :*

Faris: hatha ahm shay

Nouf: <3 

Faris: your location says arizona 

Nouf: that's true

Faris: oh so you moved

Nouf: i did

Faris: why?

Nouf: 3laj 

Faris: are you okay!?

Nouf: baba mu ana

Faris: a5r lshr nshallah

Nouf: alah yslmk<3

Faris: 6mnenii 3nk 3sak mrta7a henak?

Nouf: al7amdellah walla 7rha 7r alriyadh bs im getting used to it mali ela esbo3 w n9 wa9la

Faris: ahaaa mashallah w btdrsen?

Nouf: eee bdait elyom

Faris: kaif 3sa ma t3bti?

Nouf: 2 classes mdal3a wala:p

Faris: walla zaain 

Nouf: eee l7mdellah

Faris: wsh 3ndk elyom b3d ?

Nouf: ga3da ador bl7dega la sh3'l wla msh3'la

I took a picture lel view and sent it to him.

Faris: lnas 76'oo6' 

He sent me back a picture of his book.

Nouf: Lool leave ur phone w shd 7elk

Faris: kthrt ldrasa t6ayr lm3lomat

Nouf: veryy true

Faris: wsh rayk b3badi?

Nouf: men may7b 3badi?

Faris: allah 3alekk

Nouf: bs lesh lso2al:p

Faris: 6ara fe bali 

Nouf: loool

Faris: yala ma az3jk bakml drasa

Nouf: good luck

Faris: good luck to you too<3 it was nice talking to you

Nouf: <3 <3 

That was.. Weird? 

..

The days passed very well, i'd wake up early in the morning, take a shower get dressed then walk to the academy because i hated busses. 

At last, THE WEEKEND. 

On thursday i only had a one hour class, mn 12 ela 1 so i had almost the whole morning for myself, and my dad. 

Abo nouf: wsh rayk n6l3 ntmasha?

Nouf: btgwa?

Abo nouf: agwa ya mama wala law ena wsh feni

Eljar7 lsa ma elt2am fa 5ft ybda ynzf mara thanya.. El7amdellah it didn't there was a very old coffee shop gdam our building so we went there and we had breakfast and after that we took a walk around the streets, at 11 exactly we went back home.
I took a fast shower changed my clothes took my bag and headed to my one hour class, while i was walking i got a whatsapp from felwa..

Felwa: hey la tnsen lyom

Nouf: inshalah

Felwa: fe hotties;)

Nouf: lol sounds interesting 

Felwa: gltlk btshkreni 

Nouf: when and where

Felwa: i'll come pick you up lazm nro7 4 stations bt7osen fa meet me up at starbucks eli gdam l jam3a

Nouf: ok bs im not sure yet

Felwa: la tfwten fur9t elt3rof:D atw83 abok bynbs6=))

Nouf: ahaaa bynbs6 ena fe hotties w ketha bygol bhal6rega ana amnt 3ala bnti=))

Felwa: yas5fkk=)) meet me up at 8

Nouf: where are we going anyways

Felwa: cinema

Nouf: okayy

To go or not to go?

I whatsapp'ed shahad. 

Nouf: aro7?

Shahad: AKED!!!!!

Nouf: shahad:'( goli la:'(

Shahad: 3'abeya go have fun! Wsh yg3dk bl weekend y3nii lwnasa jaya len 3ndk

Nouf: mu jawi 

Shahad: jawk w n9!

Nouf: :( wsh albs

Shahad: wreni

I sent her an old picture of me wearing a pair of black leggings a white tank top, topped with an oversized black blazer with leather sleeves and the one and only famous timberland boots and she agreed on it. 

Shahad: you'll look sexy

Nouf: LOL?!!:))<33333

Shahad: show them who's the new hottie;) 

Nouf: lol i wish faisal ykon m3ahom

Shahad: wala law enk b california kan 3ayetk bs 3ad b3eed 3nh have fun

Nouf: inshallah i'll have fun 3ni w 3nk<333 

I attended my class and after an hour that felt like a year it ended i went back home feeling kinda tired but mama insisted on skyping us, so we sat for 4 hours skyping m3aha he w 3zozi mabga 5br ma engaal. 

Lma 9art elsa3a 5 8rart anam shway l2nii m3d ashoof gdamii. 

Abo nouf-screaming-: nouf wsh raykk nnzl ntmsha?

NOOOOO-inside scream-
I was tucked in bed. 
Sh3ooorii shain, ybki.

Nouf: shway w ajee 

I got up and got dressed with the first sweat pants i saw and an oversized shirt, i walked to my dad and he was like"wrak bmlabs elbait"

Nouf-laughing-: la baba mub mlabs bait walla bs yala 5ln6l3

I took my phone from the charger we went down and the weather was amazing! Y9dm shlon t3'ayr mshaina lma w9lna l7dega w mskna 5a6 el jog thak and we walked for a whole 
Hour, baba ra3i riya6'a y3ni 9dg felmusta8bl atmna zoji y9er zyh w kaif yhtm b jsmh w 97t'h 3ala kthr ensh3'aaalh. 

Abo nouf: wsh raykk t9eren tro7en gym?

Nouf: eee afkr ashtrk bs ga3da adwr shay greb w 24 hours 3shan may9rr 3ndi wagt m7dod

Abo nouf: mumtaz 

Nouf: yep

Abo nouf: w kaif eljam3a 3sak mrta7a? 

Nouf: a7sn mn matw83t

Abo nouf: w bnt alx 3sak mbso6a m3aha?

Nouf: 3zmtni lyoom?

Abo nouf: eee ya7lelha mat4krenha w entom 93'ar kna ray7en elyonan m3ahom

Nouf: abd wallla mathkrha-checks the clock- elsa3a 6:30 w bshofha 7:30 yala nrj3? 

Abo nouf: esbgeni ana ba54li kam lafa

Nouf: okay m3 elslama

...

Felwa: wenk -7:45PM-

Felwa: hey enti Yala -7:50PM-

Nouf: on my way

Felwa: grbti

Nouf: ee 

Felwa: 6yb bsr3a tra agrb bus yskr at 8:30 5lnl7g

Nouf: leh ma tsogen:)?

Felwa: a5af:)

Nouf: wenk?

Felwa: ed5li jwa

I saw her sitting with a guy, he was giving me his back the moment i saw his back i gave her a look. 

Felwa-waving- 

He turned back to me and he kinda looked familiar, aked eni mwswsa..

Slamt 6be3y w 3rft ena esmh Sa3d w ba3daha mshaina to the station y3nii wld 6ol grai7 leh ma ysog!

Saad: 3ajbtk arizona?

Nouf: 3adii 

Saad: ana knt b california wala jaw arizona 3ala 93'rha ela ena elnas eli feha aws3 9adr

Nouf: 3'reba kl eli a3rfhom b cali mabso6en

Saad: b ay jam3a ydrson? 

Nouf: CSU

Saad: ana knt henak!! Bs 7awlt ana w 97bii hal semester 

Oh good god. 

Saad: men eli t3rfenhom?

I ignored his question and asked felwa about the movie and she answered with"bs nro7 henak we don't watch movies."

Nouf-laughing-

We got into 2 busses already and there are still two to go, the cinema they're taking me is too far.. 

Incoming call> baba US

Abo nouf: hala baba wenk?

Nouf: m3 felwa 

Abo nouf: kwais entabhi lnafsk

Nouf: inshallah

Abo nouf: m3 elslama

Felwa: 36eni bkaalmh

Nouf-laughing-: skr

Saad: ela ento shlon t3rfon b36'?

Nouf: our dads are old friends

Felwa: r7na Greece swa!

Nouf: i don't remember abdn

Felwa: wla ana

At last we reached the humongous cinema! It wasn't in arizona exactly, blsyara it takes us 30 mins bdon esharat. 

We got in and there was a big group full of"HOTTIES" w bnat 5lejyat w s3odyat w klshay wla b centria bs bdon 3bayat. Elwa'63 kan 3adi la tnhblon bs 3arb mtjm3en bmakan i was going around with felwa i felt awkward eni ma a3rf a7d and i was getting really sleepy so i sat on of the chairs and started scrolling down path i saw faisal's thought and it was a check-in, bnafs elmakan.
8smbilah knt ng6a w aswe 3ala nafsi!! Twatrt m3rft wsh aswe gmt d5lt w t2kdt mn his location yarab california yarab yarab.

Omg. Bnt7r. 

Ma9rt ashof gdami 7laft bnafsi eni ma ag3d bnafs elmakan i walked to the door bdon ma agol lfelwa wla shay, bs elmu9eba elakbr eni wna b6l3 ho yrga eldrj.. 

I'm done.

No no.

Seriously.

DONE.

My heart started beating so fast, my blood boiled mn kthr ma i was shaking i had tears in my eyes he stopped bnafs the stair the moment he saw me i walked to the other stair and almost ran he walked behind me and healed my hand.

My heart skipped a beat.

Ma atw83 bl movies fe 9df ketha 7ta!!!!!?? 

Faisal: nouf?

Nouf: faisal

Faisal: wsh tswen hena

Nouf: ent eli wsh tswe hena

Faisal: NOUF!!! Mta jeti!!!??

Nouf: wsh d5lk! Ga3d t'63'a6 3la yadi tra-pushes his hand-

Faisal-breaths- 

Ro7i w galbi w 7yati w dnyti thalwajh :') 

Faisal-holds his head and messes up his hair-: mta jeti

Nouf-sigh-: last week

Faisal: leh ma glteli 

Nouf: kaif tbeni agolk

Faisal: nouf 

Nouf: faisal mafe ay shay y5leni agolk

Faisal: lesh jeti

Nouf: lesh ma aji

Faisal: lesh jeti

Nouf: lesh ma aji!!

I know kan ybenni agol"3shank" maydri eni aa7sb len al7en b cali.

Faisal: jawbeni

Nouf: baba jay y3alj

Nouf: maknt adri enk you moved here

Nouf: i never knew eni bshofk 

Faisal: lesh jaya hena?

Nouf: jet m3 97bti

Faisal-walks in circles-: el9dfa bt4b7ni

Nouf-holds faisal hand-: relax

Faisal-sighs in relief- 

Nouf-leaves his hand-

Faisal: ana barj3k al7en elmakan mu jawk

SHFTO GLTLKOM MU JAWY 7TA HO YGOL!!!! HE KNOWS ME VERY WELL!!!!

Nouf: mara7 at3bk i'll take the bus

Faisal: 3shani 

Felwa called wagtaha..

Felwa: wenk!! 

Nouf: rj3t elbait 

Felwa: la mu mnjdk!

Nouf: walla

Felwa: mafe busses

Nouf: i found one

Felwa: nouf e7lfi mafek shay?

Nouf: walla felwa don't worry

I ended the call and faisal gave me the "please" look. I walked in front of him to the right side w estaw3bt eni ma3rf wen syart'h..

faisal-laughing slightly-: this way -y2shr 3ala elysar-

We started walking in silence, oh how much i missed all of this. 
The way he laughs, talks, walks.

We hopped in his car, ba3daha estaw3bt. 
8smbilah ma7sait bnafsi the passed 15 minutes. I'm in his car, literally. 
Is this reality?

Faisal: wain saknen?

Nouf: tgdr tw9lni lma starbucks eli 3nd ljam3a w i know my way ba3daha

Faisal: law sm7ti i want to spend more tim with you

Nouf: bl building eli gdam el7dega lkbera

Faisal: okay

He started the engine and we took off.

I waited for him to talk, but looks like both of us are still in shock.

Faisal-coughs-: kaif arizona m3akk

Nouf: it just got better-looking to the window side-

Faisal: wen tdrsen? 

Nouf: arizonas english academy 

Faisal: aah greb mn jam3ti a9er asyr 3lek-smiling- 

Nouf-smiles back-

Faisal: kaif abok?

Nouf: el7amdellah bda yt7sn

Faisal: omk w 3zozi jayen m3kom?

Nouf: la bs ana 

Faisal: lesh ma glteli?

Nouf: klshay 9ar b 10 ayam

Faisal-breaths heavily- 

Nouf: ent lesh magltli enk nglt l arizona

Faisal: atw83 law dareti makan jeti w kan ma shftk w kan ma9ar hatha kla-badass smile-

Oh how much i missed that sneaky smile.


Faisal: wdk nmr na54 gahwa?

Nouf: no no abi anam etha shrbt bts'hrni

Faisal: aa7la w 9art ts'hrkk lgahwa

Nouf-laughing-: ee klshay t3'ayr b hal 3 sh'hor

Faisal: ela 7ubi lk ma t3'ayr

I looked back to the window and stayed quiet for the rest of the time lma grbna gltlh which building and when he stopped i wished ena elwagt kla ywagf w ag3d m3ah blsyara 6ool elwagt. 

Nouf: thank you w asfa rj3tk 

Faisal: allah a3lam bld3awi eli knt ad3eha

Esh yg9d?

I opened the door the moment i was going to jump out of the car he healed my hand tight.

Faisal: lsa labsa eleswara

Nouf: i promised eni ma ashelha

Faisal-smiling-: 3adi 6alb?

Nouf: 3ala 7sb

Faisal: 5meni

Ana eli b6lbk:')! 
I couldn't say no.
I couldn't resist, his tone was sincere to the point where all of the world stopped w mabga ela e7na. 
Galbi w ro7i 3'ali w el6alb r5e9 mat6lb ent..

I closed the door and leaned to his side and hugged him, a hug that said a lot, a hug filled with emotions and words. I breathed his scent. My faisal. He's still the same. Same perfume, same haircut, same emotions and everything but what happened that night, why did he end it? Why us? 

After 5 minutes of hugging.

Faisal-moving away- 

I moved with a tear on my cheek, he wiped it and with a very heavy voice he said"dmo3k 3'alya 7ta ana ma astahlha" 

I just looked at those eyes that i missed so much with no words. I didn't want to stay more a5af yt3da l hugs. I know him very well. Lol.

Nouf-smiling- 

Faisal: 36eni rgmk lamreki

Nouf: arslk eyah fe path

Faisal: okay

Nouf: thank you again

Faisal: 3yonii lk 

Nouf-smiling-

I finally came out of the car, walked to the apartment, to my room.

Oh.
My.

Tell me i'm dreaming!!!!!!

What just happened!!!!!!! 

I started crying so hard that my dad woke up, i was in so much tears y7sb jani shay i told him enaa jatni eldwra almha mt3bni bs 3shan ma ajeb el3eed, when actually my heart was aching and the surprise was too much for me. 

I wrote a thought"بتسألني عن حنيني ولوعة الأشواق
وانت أدرى بيا وحيرة المشتاق" 

B3di bdgega bl6'ab6

Faisal"الحظ الليلة كريم.. <3" 

I sent him my number and then he whatsapp'ed me.

Faisal: غريب شلون الصدفه جمعتنا واضح انه قدر ما منه مفر، والله استغربت يوم شفتك! ولا شايف ملاك قبالي تذكرت اول شلون شعوري بس تقولين لي "هاذاني" و اجيلك طاير و كنها اول مره! واحشتني قد الكون، شوفتك رجعت لي روحي. 

Faisal: مارح اخيب ضنك هالمره اوعدك. 

Nouf: w shoftk a7ytnii mn jdeed. 

Faisal: i want to see you again

Nouf: not any time soon 

Faisal: law sm7ti 

Nouf: please ent faisal

Faisal: 7dde wagt w makan w eli tben 

Nouf: t3rf the old coffee ? Janb our apartment 

Faisal: tomorrow morning?

Nouf: inshallah

Faisal: <3 

That night i couldn't sleep from excitement. 

Next morning i woke up feeling very sleepy shakli mn kthr eltglb ma 7sait blwagt, mdri mta nmt bs at4kr eni 9lait lfajr w ba3daha tglbt len glt bs w hena y2athn 5.. Do the math.
Anyways i got up took a shower and the i wore my all time favorite jeggings a white tank top and a light pink cardigan. 

I received a whatsapp from faisal saying he's going to be there in 5 minutes, i started getting butterflies. The old good ones. That moment i realized that shahad doesn't know yet so i whatsapp'ed her bsr3a. 

Nouf: faisal moved to arizona i pumped into him yesterday he insisted to have breakfast with me today and now i'm heading there. Bye.

I closed my phone, kissed my dad goodbye and went down. 
He does know eni i'm meeting a guy, bs wa7d bswe m3ah project nothing more..

I went inside to find faisal sitting in the right corner and a cup of coffee in front of him the moment i went inside he got up walked to me and hugged me, and again i couldn't stop myself from hugging him. 

We sat down and we talked like there was no tomorrow. 

Faisal: w esh nawya? Tkamlen wla bs 3 sh'hor?

Nouf: lsa wala ma 8rart

Faisal: ha tjen m3ay? Ntzwj w nkml b california? 

Nouf-shyly laughing- 

Faisal: goli ee w ytm elamr

Nouf: what's your plans for tomorrow -laughing- 

Faisal-laughing-: alah la y7rmni mn hal'67ka 

I blushed. Uf. How much i missed his flirting. 

Faisal: my plans eni a54k w n6l3

Nouf: mashallah w btkaml kl hal 3 sh'hor m3ay -laughing-

Faisal: law y79li kl el3umr-sincerely-

Nouf: wen btdweni

Nseet kl el 3 sh'hor eli fato, nseet elbaki eli y97eni bnn9 el lail, the emptiness, the heart-aches and everything. Nset'hom b sa3a wa7da w kni rj3t layam awal..

Faisal: bawdekkk m7l 

Nouf: esh ho 

Faisal: maynf3 agolk 

Nouf: ajal mara7 aji

Faisal: w goli labok yje m3na

Nouf-laughing-: la enhblt walla

Faisal-laughing-: bs elbsi zain 

Nouf: kaif zain?

Faisal: barkbbk 79an

Nouf: laaa a5af mjnon enhblt

Faisal: 3shaniii, ana m3akk

Nouf: la la mabi

Faisal: ha ajal wen tben tro7en?

Nouf: la may7taj bukra 

Faisal: law sm7tiii 

Nouf: okay bs bshr6

Faisal: amreni enti bs

Nouf: maa arkb bs atfrj

Faisal: deal.

..
I went back home after that and i was happier than ever, ldrjat aboy la76'.. While i was laughing on shahad's reaction baba 9dmni..

Abo nouf: mashalah elebtsama shaga elwajh

Nouf-laughing-: shakl arizona bda mf3olha 

Abo nouf: alah ynf3 feha wna abok

Nouf: amen 

Abo nouf: ba6l3 at3sha m3 wa7d mn a97abi elyom

Nouf: men?

abo nouf: Nasser alx 

Nouf: naseer alx!?

Abo nouf: ee 

Nouf: okay..

Abo faisal... Ma7kali shay. 

Nouf: sakn hena? 

Abo nouf: la wallah allah y5fif 3nh feh elmar6' elshain w jay y3alj bs jay hena yomain 3nd wldh glt ashofh 

La 7wl wla 8wat ela bellah! It's harder now.

I decided not to talk about it and wait for him to open up to me, bs dam aboh jay yzorh mafro6' yg3d m3ah! Should i tell him? W ba3den lesh tawni adri ena aboh w aboy a97ab:)? 

Faisal: nouf

Nouf: hala

Faisal: aboy t3ban 

Nouf: slamt'h wsh feh?

Faisal: lmar'6 elshain

Nouf: oh, allah yshfeh w y3afeh w yj3lh takfer..

Faisal: t3bt nafsyti m3ah 

Nouf: 7bebi alah ykon b3onk nafsyt abok mn nafsytk 5alk agwa mn ketha 

Faisal: 3 sh'hor wna a7awl eni a76 kl ehtmamii laboy bs kl ma at3b mayje fe bali ela enti wdi ajek bs mu gadr mst7i mn nafsi w mn eli swait'h

Nouf: faisal leh ma gltli

Faisal: ma adri 

Nouf: galbi what's important is today, work for it 5lek m3 abok w keep him strong 

Faisal: walla msken mhlkh elmr6'

Nouf: yab3d galbi:') a5r lshr inshalah

Faisal: jay yzorni elyom yfaj2nii

Nouf: ya ml7h mt3nnelk<3

Faisal: i feel weak, very weak

Nouf: you're strong. Stronger than you think. 

Faisal: how did shahad manage all of that mashalah 3aleha

Nouf: she struggled bs rabi ma y7ml elensan akthr mn 6a8t'h wla?

Faisal: waln3ma billah 

Nouf: wakl amrk lrabi 

Faisal: inshallah<3 

Nouf: <3 

Faisal: bs lsa 3ala wa3dna

Nouf: eg3d m3 abok la7g 3lay

Faisal: n97a el9ba7 sa3ten w nrj3 i need you walla

Nouf: mn 3yoni 

Faisal: yazenk w yazen 3yonk.. 

Nouf: :*

Nouf: aboy by6l3 m3 97bh lyom

Faisal: ajek;)?

Nouf: 97bh esmh nasser alx:D

Faisal: oooh elwaaald!

Nouf: shft ldnya 93'eeera

Faisal: shrayk n6l3 m3hom?

Nouf: la btjeni felwa

Faisal: felwa men

Nouf: 97bti

Faisal: felwa alx?

Nouf: ee kef t3rfha

Faisal: abd wala nashba l9a7bi nshba

Nouf: saad?

Faisal: ee shdrak=))

Nouf: ams kna ray7en swa lel cinema w i saw kaif tnrfzt lma 9ar ysolf m3y

Faisal: masshallah mn awalha :p

Nouf: ee tawna bdaity el9ya3a:p

Y3ni mdri-.-!!

Faisal: lzbda wsh mu56a6t el laila

Nouf: i'll catch up m3 my series' ana w felwa gltlkk

Faisal: w ttrkeni msken?

Nouf: bye=))

Faisal: LOL wdi a'39bk 3ala el6al3a m3y bs a5af tkrheni

Nouf: 3ala asas bsm3 klamk

Faisal: w lesh ma tsm3en

Nouf: l2ni nouf mub lulu

Faisal: rj3naaa lel6aaair yaliiii=)) 

Nouf: -.-

Faisal: lulu, ba7. Ma3d lha athr b7yati.

Nouf: it's ur life mayhmni:p

Faisal: ana yhmni t3rfen ena must7el a7d ykon b7yati 3'erk

Nouf: wa'67 

Faisal: bwa'67lk zyada bs mu elyom.

..
-THE NEXT DAY- 
I got up wore a beige leggings that suited the place we're going and dark blue cardigan and my hair was in a high messy bun i was too sleepy to function zain mni lbst. 

Faisal: are you up yet?

Nouf: i'm done 

Faisal: shwaya w amrk

Nouf: b3ed elmakan

Faisal: no half an hour ketha

Nouf: wow mara greb

Ymkn kther byst3'rb eni shlon a6l3 m3ah w elwa'63 3adi eli 7ta ma atrdad!! Bs 7bait agolkum eni le 7ol el 4 snwat a3rfh, w 93b eni ansa el3shra w a7ss nafsi enh ensan 3'reb when he's not. 
 
I told my dad that i was going to continue working on the project fe maktbt eljam3a 6b3n klh fagsh.. Bs shswi b3d wsh m6l3ni on a weekend elsa3a 7 l9ba7:) 

I went downstairs and waited outside for faisal to arrive after 7 minutes w9l 3mii.
I got inside the car and it felt good, i don't know why i felt good but i did.
Ymkn fikrt eni a6l3 m3ah w kn ma 9ar shay? Aw his smell? It does make everything better. Walla.

Faisal-coughing-: shfeeh bu l3z mnfs

Nouf-laughing-: 9a7ya mn 7 aked bnfs

Faisal: bs zain '67kti

Nouf: ee 3ad mu lhdrja mnfsa

Faisal: ha wen tben nf6r?

Nouf: mu jo3ana walla

Faisal: 6yb coffee t9797k?

Nouf: ma agol la

Faisal: 6yb shofi l ipod mawjod jnbk eshbkeh

Nouf: ipod uff 

Faisal: eshbkeh enti bs

Nouf: wsh a76

Faisal: ed5li album 3badi

Nouf: ewa

Faisal: rab3 o3'neya

Nouf-smiling to herself-

للمحبة حدود وحبي لك سما والسما لو تعرف ابعاد وحدود.. 

-moving on to where he forced me to ride a horse-

Nouf: faisal law sm7t la 

Faisal: n6ii w bn6k wrak la t5afen

Nouf: e7lf ma ttrkni

Faisal-laughing-: walla

Nouf-jumps on top of the horse-

Faisal: ha atrkkk??

Nouf: faisaaaaaal!!

He jumped wray el7amdellah, but it was kinda awkward.. He put his hands around my waist to hold that thing ma adri lesh ma ho yrkb gdam wna wrah.. 

Nouf: shrayk ana anzl w arkb wrak

Faisal: 3ajbni lwa'63

Nouf: i can feel you smiling-laughing-

Faisal: i am smiling, i'm happy!! -puts his chin on nouf's shoulder-

I felt his breath against my ears it gave me shivers.. 

Faisal: tben asr3 shway?

We were walking around fog thal79an eli mt7mlna.. 

Nouf: no please a5af n6e7

Faisal: i promise mara7 n6e7 bs enzli erkbi wray 

His chin was still on my shoulder..

Nouf: 6yb b3d shway

He kissed my neck very fast and moved away. Ugh.

I jumped and walked away"bye bye"

Faisal: erj3i ya 5wafa-laughing-

I went back and jumped up on the horses back again lelasf, i hugged his waist and the horse like wolves were running after us. It scared me a bit but it felt good. 

We slowed down and faisal we getting tired by the time..

Faisal-breathing heavily-: la mashallah ma 9r5ti bs knti bt6l3en kabdi mn mkanh bs-laughing-

Nouf: mn eltaf'3e9??-laughing-

Faisal-side hugging nouf-: eee 

Nouf: la nmshi 3ala 6ol erta7 w ba3daha nrj3

Faisal: la yala mshena i'll go wash up bs

Nouf: okayy

J3lnnnii ma an7rm wh..kaml w elkaml allah:( 

Faisal: erkbi w bal7gkk

Nouf: bro7 el7mam gabl

Faisal: 6yb

...moving on

Lma w9lni lelbait kan wdi abgs'h mn kthr ma ana a7bh. I stayed in the car for 10 minutes in silence bs.. Lelabd.

Faisal: 6al3eni

Nouf-while laying her head back-: hmm

Faisal: lfii

Nouf-looking to faisal's side-: hala

Faisal-leans down and kisses her-

Gd gltlk eni i can't resist him? Umm okay ajal agolkum al7en..i only pushed him l2nii 5ft baba yshofna. Wla abd makan wdi. 

Nouf: faisal baba fog majnon! 

Faisal: mayhmni

Nouf: la lazm yhmk

Faisal: baji a54k mnh 3shan aswe fek eli abi

I blushed, BLUSHED!!

Nouf-opens the door-: yala est3'l lfur9a

Faisal-smiling charmingly-: i will 


Nouf: bye and thank you enbs6t

Faisal: kwais el7amdellah take care

I closed the door behind me and i felt like another of happiness opened. 

But wait..

As i went upstairs, my dad wasn't home so i assumed that he was walking around or something. So i decided to skype shahad and ask her if what i'm doing is right? 
Letting him back in?

-skype-

Shahad: hala hala
 
Nouf: t7sen eli ga3da asweh 9a7?

Shahad: eli ho?

Nouf: letting him back in

Shahad: do you want him

Nouf: ee 

Shahad: 5ala9 ajal lesh mtrad'da

Nouf: mdri a5af y7sb eni i'm easy 

Shahad: he knows you akthr mna klna i'm sure he's not going to use this against you

Nouf: you think?

Shahad: i know

Nouf: he kissed me gabl 15 sa3a bl6'ab5

Shahad-puts her hand on her mouth-: wen 3ami faisal lhdrja mshtaglkkk

Nouf: enhbl a9lan ygol ba5thk mn abok 3shan aswe fek eli abi-hides her face-

Shahad-laughing-: 3aaaaaib

Nouf: wsh aswe feeh ef

Shahad: allah yktb eli feh el5air

Nouf: amen yarab

Shahad: wen abok?

Nouf: mdri bdg 3leh al7en 

Shahad: yalla shofii w 7akeni whatsapp

Nouf: bye

I closed and called my dad w zy matw83t ydoor bl7dega..

-later that day-

Faisal: i learned that living without you is impossible and the passed few months were hell to me. And you being here means that we're meant to be, and you're my destiny.
Forgive me for what i did. 

Faisal: i love you like no other and i will always will!

Nouf: i love you more than words can ever say.

Faisal: allah la y7rmni<3 

Nouf: wla mnk<3 

Faisal: sleeping any time soon?

Nouf: i'm kinda sleepy now bs bstna baba ynam w bnam b3daha

Faisal: okay zain nom l3afya yagalbi

Nouf: y3afekk<3 

Faisal: and btw i might go m3 aboy the next few days

Nouf: 9dg??

Faisal: eee

Nouf: alah ygawek ya ro7ii

Faisal: <3<3

..

-FEW WEEKS LATER-

Everything was going pretty fine. 
I had the time of my life.
Faisal was perfect, everything was perfect and it felt like i was in heaven. Baba ba7sn 7alt'h, faisal's dad is getting better w mama tfkr tjena he 3zozi greb wsh a7la mn ketha?

And that day that everything did change when faisal whatsapp'ed"ttw83en law a6lbk mn abok w e7na hena ma yogf galbh?"

Nouf: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL 7ram 3alek

Nouf: mu lhdrja

Faisal: mnjdi:)

Nouf: mnjdk?

Faisal: jawbeni!

Nouf: faisal

Faisal: i want to continue my whole life with you w ma abi amshi m3k w ana 5ayf wla shayl ham. 

Okay we've already talked about this bs hal mara en9dmt!! 

Nouf: okay

Faisal: i want you

Nouf: i'm yours

Faisal: 36eni rgm omk

Nouf: mu taw tgoli aboy:'( 

Faisal: l5b6t t4krrt lazm elom tklm omha 

Nouf: omha

Faisal: eeee om l3rosa

Nouf: 05*******

Faisal: trani 7kait omii..

Nouf: 9dg?

Faisal: w aboy

Nouf: :') 

Faisal: shofi ho shaklha yomain w t5l9 lsalfa l2ni ma ast7ml

Nouf: LOL<3! Sana ya baba wen tjhezat w ashya2 w la tnsa wrana drasa 

Faisal: ns7b 3ala omhaa

Nouf: la la la

Faisal: 36et omi lrgm 

Nouf: :$

-RIYADH SIDE OF THE STORY-

Om faisal: alo alsalam 3alekom

Om nouf: ya hala w mar7ba..?

Om faisal: om 3abdl3ziz?

Om nouf: ee hala 7bebti m3ak

Om faisal: m3ak om faisal alx Samiya alx 

Om nouf: ya hala wallaa ahlen 7bebtii

Om faisal: wsh a5barkom wsh 3lomkum?

..

-A WEEK LATER IN ARIZONA-

Incoming call> baba 

Nouf: hala baba

Abo nouf: wenk ?

Nouf: lsa bageli class  fe shay?

Abo nouf: la bs b7akek bmaw6'o3 lma trj3en la t6l3en

YUMA... 

I whatsapp'ed faisal.

Nouf: baba just called me

Faisal: e7lfi??

Nouf: la afgsh 3ala rask:) mu wjh zwaj

Faisal: :))) la twatreni wna mtwatr:) 

Nouf: ef 5ft mabi arj3

Nouf: mabek hawnt

Faisal: etha ma jeteni bl6eb ajebk bl'39b;)

Nouf: :)=))<33333!

When i went back my dad welcomed me with smiles and hugs w klam awal mara asm3aa.. I sat down and looked at him in confusion..

Nouf: wsh elsalfa

Abo nouf: walla wna abok ana mdri shlon alabo ygol lbnt'h w yfat7ha bhalmaw6'o3 a5af agol klam may3jbk aw y'6aygk

Nouf: haw 

Abo nouf: mn ela5r ya baba omk daga 3lay gabl esbo3 w galtli ena nas dagen 6albenk

Nouf: aywa?

Abo nouf: w nas ana a3rfhom sha59yan nas 6ayben walla w 3yal 7lal w mara7 atmna lbnti wld a7sn 

Nouf: wld men?

Abo nouf: Faisal alx wld nasser 

Nouf-coughs- 

Abo nouf: shofi ya mama ana 3arf ena enti 3ndk fkra brask w mtmska feha fa etha matben elshay raj3lk zy daym agolk enti kbera w el8rar 8rark bs la t6'ay3en elfur9a elwld wld nas w n3rfhom. 

Nouf: afkr ya baba 9dmtnii el9ra7aa.. 

Wow mara m9doma ashwni adri gablkom. LOL.. 

Abo nouf: omkk btkalmk skype elyom w shofi 7akeha w est5eri

Nouf-acting shocked-: okay inshallah 

You all know ena mama gaf6tni mara 3ala faisal bs he ma3rft la esmh wla men ho.. Fa adri enha tbe tshof rdt f3li w bt3rf etha ho wla la wagtaha.. 

Later that day i video called her and i was smiling all the time.. 

Om nouf: walla w 6l3 wld 7lal ma hgait'h y7bk ketha

Nouf-laughing-: mamaaa 

Om nouf: la ttsar3en ya mama el7yat mu l3ba wla film fakri gabl ma t5len msha3rk tfkr

Nouf: ana mst5era mn zman w mrta7a al7amdellah bs mdri shlon agol lbaba.. 

Om nouf: 5ala9 ana baklmkh ba3d 3 ayam w bgolh enk klmteni w wafgti w enk esta7aiti tgolenlh

Nouf: a7bkkk ya a3'laaa om!! 

9ra7a mara ysa7ii eni 7kait m3 omi ketha bs 5ala9 ya5i, 5arba 5arbaa.. 

..
-a week later-

Faisal: hey you

Faisal: w9lnii 5br enk bttzwjen

Nouf: that's true

Faisal: mashalah mn eli omh da3yytlh

Nouf: wa7d de3laaah bs l7ub a3ma.

Faisal: mashallah 

Nouf: :$!

Faisal: s3adti ma tnw9f.

Nouf: wla s3adti.

Faisal: i love you wifey. 

Nouf: i love you. 

Faisal: i'll see you next summer, naked;)

Nouf: faisal ya glel eladb=)) ahwn tra 

Faisal: matswenhaa

Nouf: w b3den men galk abi zwajii l9aif?? Abeh el9aif eli b3dh bjls ajhz 

Faisal: la mu mnjdk ana ma 9dgt l5br tjen tnkdenh 3aly:)?

Nouf: reality sucks babe

Faisal: but both ways i'll see you naked one day;)

Nouf: wala aklm omi:)

And i've never ever in my life thought that my life would turn upside down bs bsfra wa7da b a8l mn shahr w shway everything went back on track and even better.
I know you all think faisal is still lwld"al6aysh" but deep down he's an old 40 years old mst8r guy he can manage a house with 2 kids and a wife"Me."
I wouldn't have ever wished for a better life. 
Rabii estjaab d3wati w ho a3lam wa7dh wsh kant hathek el lyali m5bya d3watt. Rabii 3umrh may5b 6'an a7d w daym eli maktoob y9er w must7el yt3'ayr ela bldo3a2. Al7amdellah 3ala kl eln3am el7amdellah 3ala ahliii w faisal w 9degati eli mafe zayhom. Al7amdellah alf mara. 

(W 6b3an 3ala ra3'bt elzoj el7beb elnakdii tmalkna 9aif 2013 w 9aif 2014 elzawaj inshallah W allah ytamim w yktb elii feeh el5air leljamee3<333) 

Faisal: mumkin ma tsfheni????? 

Nouf: mumkin ma tnshablii?

Faisal: mgrod ana ma54k a9lan.

Nouf: yab5tk feni bs.

Faisal: el9dg? Yab5ti w ya76'i w yaaaa mdri -side hugging nouf- bs 36na wjh ya 7luu.. 

-THE END.- 

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Here and there (NOUF's WORDS.)

This came from the bottom of my heart,  i've been writing it for few days and i tried my best to reach every girl's broken heart. 
The very first part was written by an anonymous reader, thank you. 
The rest is by me, hope the "feels" gets you. 
And oh elklam eli ba3d lnajma, o3'neya bs 3'ayrt feha klma w shlt shay..
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لاول مره بحياتي اتمنى اني ماعرفتك ولاقابلتك ..لكن وش يفيد ؟ ثلاث سنين كلام عيوني محد يفهمه غيرك ولا احد يحس بي مثلك ولا كثرك .. لدرجة انك صرت تفهمني اكثر من نفسي.. صرت اغلى من روحي علي .. حبيتك بكل مافيني ايه كنت اكابر لكن ما حرمتك حبي، عطيتك كل مافيني.. ولا مره استكثرته عليك. صحيح عطيتني كل ما ابي لكنك ما وفيت.. ليتني ما قربت من حدودك ابد ليتني بقيت اتأملك من بعيد، طلبت البعد بداخلي ما دريت انه بيوم بيتحقق ما دريت ان بهالسهوله ثلاث سنين تطيح! توقعت انك بتبقى لي حتى و مع كل الضغوط، عمري ما توقعت يضيع الامل من بينا و تتركني معلقه وحيده! انت اكثر شخص يعرف اني ما اقدر اعيش من غيرك! تعاقبني؟ 
انا اللي ما انكسر، اللي ياجبل ما يهزك ريح!!!! اللي دايم "اللي جابه يجيب غيره" على لسانها صرت في بعدك ولا شبي من هذا، يحسبوني قاويه فراقك، يحسبوني ما همني لا بعدك ولا اخبارك ما يدرون اني احفر و ادور بس عشان ادري وش صار بك!! 
ضايعه بين دموعي و افكاري، حب و كره و شوق ذابحني! ادعس على نفسي كل صبح و اقوم و اقول"اللي يحبك ما يتركك بدون سبب. اللي يحبك يا نوف! مستحيل يخليك" بس تدري وش يصير بعدها ؟ ارجع و استرجع كل شي بينا و اعذرك الف و ستين مره و اقول لو يجي بهاللحظة انا مستعده اخذه بكل ما فيه!! ارجع و اقول ليت و ليت و ليت!! و ليتني التمني ينفع مخلوق!! 
ليتك، ليتك ما عطيتني يا فيصل. 
استغرب من حالي! كيف كنت و كيف صرت، بلحظة تغير كل شي، انسلب مني كل شي. 
صغيره انا يا فيصل، صغيره و ضعيفه ببعدك.. 
انا وياك نعرف وش كان ورا حكينا و كلامنا، الكلام و الالغاز اللي بين الحروف، يمكن عمري ما حليت واحد.. بس بعد عمري ما فكرت ان هذا جواب، جواب لواحد من الغازك! 
دايم امي كانت تقولي صعب الشخص يتقبل فكرة رحيل شخص عزيز عشان كذا الواحد لازم يتهيئ لكل مفاجأة، ايه والله صعب و مادريت اني بتفاجئ فيك يوم.. 
اشتقت للفجر معاك، اشتقت لصوتك و انت توك قايم من نومك، اشتقت اخفي مشاعري و انت عارفها بتفاصيلها، اشتقت لشوفتك بدون كلام، اشتقت لكلامك اللي بعض الاحيان ماله معنى و عتابك الي بدون سبب اشتقت لكل مافيك، اشتقت اسألك انت مجنون؟ تقولي "والله يقولون مجنون بحبك"..
 تدري؟ ما توقعت بيوم غياب شخص عني بيأثر فيني هالكثر، بس اكتشفت انك مو اي شخص و وجودك في حياتي، كان حياة. 
ابيك باللي فيك، ابيك بأخطائك، بشينك و زينك، ابيك ولو الدنيا كلها حاولت تغنيني عنك. 
ابيك و لو اني منكره. 
***
طال إنتظاري وطولت لحظة لقاك.
يكفي غياب أرجوك ما عدت قادر..
إلى متى بتغيب وأحتاج ملقاك...
أقول بكره ينتهي الهم وألقاك..
يطلع علي الصبح وأقول باكر..
ضايع بدونك بين همي وذكراك..
أنا أعترف بالضعف ما أقدر أكابر..
أعيش أنا بإحساس ما أظن بكاك..
واخفي دموعي لأجل بعض المظاهر..
الصمت بيت ودمعتي ألف شباك..
والهــم باب وغيبتك ألف زاير..
أرجع أخاف القلب في البعد ينساك..
ما يستوي في الحـب غايب وحاضر..
أختار بين إثنين قربك وفرقاك..
يا تموت الحرمان ولا المشاعر..

Here and there Ch.14

After the fight we calmed down, he apologized million sten mara! T3thar w e3t4r and As long as i remember 3umri ma z3lt 3ala faisal ldrjt eni ma a7akeh! Lsa ma agwa.. So after that we started talking shway normal,bs ard bklma w rd '36aha w 5ala9 bs ahm shay ma asfha.. Ba3den he literally cried lma i called him again mn nafsi, How can you not forgive the one you love ba3d ma ybkon for forgiveness and he's not just anyone! He's my faisal. But i still had the feeling da5li lsa bnafsi shay, i wished and prayed for 2 days ena the feeling fades, it slowly did.. But not completely. 

At last! Our uni started their national food day and i was surprised that even guys participated on this! Knt mtwa83a bs bnat. I never saw the guys in our uni, i heard enhom"ys6lon" mn klam reem LOL bs 9ra7a no one grabbed my attention.. I was going around the food with one of my friends, faj2a n3'ztni w ela tbe tro7 ta5th mhalbya 7ara (m7lbya*whatever u call it) i've always loved mhalbyat jadti w tw83t ma7d ygdr y'6b6ha 3'airhaa ela an9dm bthal wald elzain mswe thalmhlbya elzaina.... 

Guy: ha tbon 97n akbr shaklha 3ajbtkom? 

Rana-ttdal3-: mashallaah 3alek ent msweha?

Guy: elwalda ma g9rt ma 5lt shay ma 3almtna 

Nouf: lesh swet elmhlbya blthat?

Guy: l2ni knt msht'heha gabl ma anam 

Nouf: w 97ait el9ba7 w swait'ha w elwa'63 6be3y -laughing- 

Guy: dam halmhalbya jabtk l7d hena agom elfajr

Nouf-laughing-: okayyy 

Rana-getting angry-: elzbdaa ab3'a 97n kber 

Guy: w enti? 

Nouf: la mu mshtahya mara al7en lma y9erlk m7l b6lb mnk l2n mhalbytk zy 7gt jadti alah yr7mha 

Guy: ya ba5ti-handling rana her plate- 

Nouf: ya ba5tk

Guy: aah esm3i law tben aw9lk ana mta ma eshtaheti!

Nouf: la wsh d3wa

Guy: wallla 7alft 3alek arsl elswag mu mushkela

Guy: w mabi la 3shan 5a6r halnational food eli mafeh ela akl s3odi 

Nouf-laughing-: walla may7taj wsh d3wa

Guy: la la ma 3lek enti bs 36eni rgmk a5th lwa9f

Rana-a little bit shocked-

Nouf: ah may7taj etha mara mlzm elwa9f maybela y3ni agdr aktbh lk

Guy: okay ajeblk warga dgega

W bda y5trsh, it was cute. But NO. 

Rana-almost whispering-: mnjdk?

Nouf: elwld mlzm mnb gadra amshi w atrka

Rana: mat3rfena

Nouf: a7d gal btzwja?! Tra ras malha mhalbya 

Rana: 6yb a39ab shfek enti lek yomain mu mt7mla shay

Nouf: mafeni shay-laughing-

He came back w katbtla w9f betna gali byrsl elswag 3ala elma3'rb y3ni mdri, y7s ymon bs wala 7sait magdr agol la. 

Anyways! After the day full of food reem raghad and shahad came to pick me from uni 3shan naween yrj3on beti, 3elmn enhom 3azmen nafs'hom shway.. 

Reem: bmooot abi el danube btwdoni wla bnt7r

Raghad: y3 shfeha thy 7btlaha wa7d mn el hnod eli henak???

Reem: 3ala zg enti!!!

Nouf: esm3o ana mali 5lgkom 7alyan btskton wla esh?

Shahad: esssssh 

Nouf-laughing-: m9alaaaah 

Reem: noufi galbi enti darya ena kl el3yal ketha y3ni mfro6' matg3den b9dmah w kurh larb3 ayam

Raghad: 9adga! Wallaa 5welk bnt ary7lk

Reem-laughing-: la mama la 7bebti laaaa mub ketha elnas t'hdi w tn97

Shahad and nouf-laughing so hard-

Nouf: wala mu ketha i'm fine bs elnafsya b3d eljam3a 

Shahad-side hugging-: wh wh wh 

Nouf-laughing-: elzbdaa bgolkum salfa 9art elyom

Reem: goli lrashed ymr eldanube la al3n shaklts

Nouf: golela enti

Rashed: 5ala9 ana fahm 

Reem-laughing-: rjaaal w elrejalo 8lelon 

Nouf: elzbda agolkum t5ylo ador m3 rana hathi eli gltlkom 3nha

Raghad: y3 y3 3jzt ah6'mha thalbnt

Nouf: eeee ma9lh t5ylo s7btni ts7eb bttmel7 3nd wa7d a5r shay w9l ena b3'a ya5th ragmi

Reem: haaaaw-laughing-

Nouf: esm3i enti bs

Shahad: jak whatsapp mn faisal-ebtsama bathra-

Nouf: keli zg 6yb-ebtsama bathra- 

Raghad: kaamli

Nouf: elzbda ho kan mswy mhalbya w ana mu mara knt jo3ana wagtaha bs jarbt w ygali astahbl gltla law tw9l w mdri esh gali 5ala9 mub mushkela ena yje len 3ndk ana eli omg what thef???? 

Shahad: YMOOOON 

Raghad: walaah yazenh

Nouf: gmt agola ena la may7taj w mdri esh gali wallaa ma3lay w ma abi la w mdri esh w nshb mara gam gali 36enii rgmk a54 elwa9f gltla la may7taj ena bs baktblk eyah bwarga

Shahad: ashwaaaaa 

Nouf: ee w bs ktabta bwrga w byrsl elswag elma3'rb wala ya 3leh mhalbya b mooz tjeb elraaas

Raghad, reem and shahad-disgusted expression- 

Shahad: ykrrrmmm eln3maa 

Reem: wdi athogha bs shaklaha mara 3jbtk aw ho eli 3ajbk-wink-

Raghad: aaah aaah -wink-

Shahad: knkom nseto l7ub?

Raghad: wel7ub nsaha w klm wa7da 3'airha 3ala asas btfrg 

7zt b5a6rii.. Ma a7kelkom gd esh! 

Nouf: bs mu ldrjt a7aki 3'airh mu jawi wa7da bw7da 

Until the devil starting roaming around my head. Why? Everytime he does something i forgive him and i've never in our 2/3 years did something to hurt him? It's huge when it's you who's going through all of this. 

As we went inside danube w bdaina nmshi w ndor mdri esh yshron bl6'ab6 he skyped called me, i put my headphones on w mshet b3ed b3ed 3nhom w 3n ez3ajhom.. 

Nouf: alo

Faisal: goli amen

Nouf: amen

Faisal: j3lni ma an7rn mn hal9ot

Nouf-silence- 

Faisal: galbi

Nouf: hala

Faisal: mshtaglk

Nouf: gd esh?

Faisal: alah wa7dh a3lm

Nouf: esh lmaw6'o3 eli knt bt7akeni feh

Faisal: ensi 5ala9

-

Reem-screaming-: tra bnro7 n7asbb 

I walked to them and stopped in front gablhom w lsa my headphones were still on.

Nouf: abi a3rf 6yb?

Faisal: shay mayhm wala

Nouf: haw 

Faisal: 3'ala6t lma glt w t7sft ensi enti bs

Nouf: ya alah mnk ya faisal! 5th shahad ana bro7 a7asb!! 

9ayra ma ast7ml elt3'ali!! 5ala9.

-SHAHAD's SIDE OF THE STORY-

Faisal: shfeha?

Shahad: ent eli shfek 

Faisal: ana mafeni shay

Shahad: 6yb ya nafsyat 

Faisal: shaklkom 6al3en

Shahad: ee bl danube kna maren 7bebtk mn eljam3aa

Faisal: 3'reba 6al3a badri

Shahad: elyom 7g elakl

Faisal: aaah! 

Shahad: ma galtlk 3n elwald eli bywa9lha akl len bet'ha-laughing- ymon bzyada 

Faisal: n3am? 

Shahad: wsho?-shocked-

Omg..... Omg. Banl3n.

Faisal: wsh aklh! Ay wald?

Shahad: uh esm3 hathi nouf 5th'ha 

I gave the phone to nouf w gltlha faisal ybeha... 

-NOUF'S SIDE OF TE STORY-

Nouf: haw shahad mskr ?

Shahad: ah ymkn bl3'ala6

Nouf: elzbda yala 

Reem: laaa76'a nset ajebli shay

Shahad: baji m3akk 

Raghad: ana ba3d

Nouf: allah ya5thkom-laughing- t3alo blsyara yaklab

I was walking with 3 heavy bags and my phone was in my pocket 7sait ena it was vibrating, estaw3bt ena skype, shway w ark6' a5af y7sbni faisal eni safhta!

As i gave rashed the bags i went inside the car and called him back. 

Faisal: mumkin tshr7enli? 

Nouf: haw ashr7lk esh?

Faisal: w9lt ena el3yal yw9lonlk akl lenn betk-sarcastic laugh- 

Nouf: w etha? Tra akl

Faisal: aha, okay akl 

Nouf: ee akl! Ma d5lt lwld baitna wla gahwet'h leh el39bya

Faisal: mu enti gayltli enh bs bnat!!!? Tstahblen 3ala rasi enti? N6'amkkk pay back???????? 

Nouf: faisal la t9r5 -quietly- 

Faisal: la tmsheni 3ala kaifk!! I've had enough!!! This is all wrong!!! 

Nouf: elswag eli byw9lh

Faisal: eeeeh 6h!!! T7sbeni thor?

Nouf: faisal

Nouf: wdk tglb elsalfa 3lay? Madrait eni 7ta z3l ma z3lt w ent lk ash'hr t7aki wa7da? T7sbni zyk!? 

Faisal: wsh zyi!!

Nouf: la 7bebi ana mu zyk!!!! Ana ma aro7 a7bli wa7d w 3ndi wa7d m3'neeni ma aro7 a7akeli wa7d l2nh "yarab enh wld" la faisal ana mu zyk ana mu zyk bwla shay

Faisal: may7taj elaflam

Nouf: okay faisal ent shaklk m39b w ana abd mali 5lg lma trawg ntfahm

I ended the call, shocked. 
What the f was that!? 

After an hour he whatsapped me. 

Faisal: sorry about the screaming 

Nouf: no problem

Faisal: i need to tell you something. 

Nouf: go on

Faisal: i love you more than anything in this world and i wish one day t9eren le l7ali, but this is not working.

Nouf: this?

Faisal: us

Faisal: me and you, we've been fighting over everything and anything and i can't take it anymore

Nouf: okay

Faisal: this should end, w rabi yktb eli feh el5air

Nouf: what should end? The fights?

Faisal: no nouf no

Nouf: what

Faisal: us

Nouf: simply? 

Faisal: i've been thinking for so long

Faisal: please don't hate me i just don't want to hurt you more 

Nouf: right

Faisal: law sm7ti 

Nouf: whatever suits you

Faisal: i love you ok? More than anything

Nouf: i don't believe you anymore 

Faisal: one day baji w a54k w enti tshofen, sana snten enshalah 10 blnhaya bt9eren le

Nouf: ee l2n ldnya 3ala kaifk tmshi, t7sb elmsha3r l3ba w ana 3demt msha3r bla9l!! T7sb eni mara7 at3b? T7sb ena sahl 3lay?????

Nouf: 7aram 3alek sneni eli 6'ay3taha 3ala wla shay tnhi eli bena!!!

Nouf: mabek! Ana? Ma 3ad abek

Nouf: w m3 kl hatha w kl eli tsweh feni ya faisal i wish you nothing but the best, mara7 atrjak fe shay ent matbeh mara7 ajbrkk wlaw elbu3d gatlni

Nouf: alah yhnek w ys3dk

Simply. 
Whoever wants to stay, will stay. And whoever wants to leave, the door is open. 
Ela mta i'll fight for him to stay? 
Ela mta bathl nafsi?
Rooo7 allah y7f6'k mn kl shr ro7 wlaw eni lel7en abek. 
Gd ma z3lt mnh ma3d bga feni 3tab, mabga feni shay yngal. 
Allah a3lam blii ga3d y9er feni al7en. 
I hope i can manage it.
He doesn't want me! 5ala9. 

Shahad-opens the door-: h-heeey!! Wsh fek?

Reem-opens the other door-: HAW!!! 

They jumped and tried to get whatever is going on with me but no word came out. 
I threw the phone on shahad and she started reading. 

Shahad: 6yb ymkn elwald yt3'ala 

Nouf: ana a3rfh

Shahad: 6yb kan 7awlti

Nouf: a7awl esh shahad? Afr6' nafsi? Maybeni leh a'39bh?

Shahad: 6yb rdi 3aleh 

Nouf: wsh gal? 

Shahad: egreh

Nouf: mabi

Raghad: 36eni ana agra

Raghad: quoting faisal"please forgive me for whatever i've done, i promise you i'll be back. I know i have no reason to leave but it's for the best for the both of us, okay baby? I love you till the end of time" 

Reem-yadha 3ala galbha-: yashenh

Nouf-tears-: mn kthr ma a7bh karht'h

Shahad: nouf try es2leh leh 6yb elwald ma 36ak ay 3thr

Nouf: ana mabi a34ar it will make it worse.. 

Shahad: enti mstaw3ba?

Raghad: fakri nouf 5thi wagtk

Nouf: mara7 ajbr a7d 3aly

Reem: y3ni law al7en galk 5ala9 abek btgolen yala mshena?

Nouf: la 6b3an.

Reem: 5ala9 nafs elshay! Mu awal maygolk i'll end this tgolen okay m3 elslama 

Raghad: faisal hatha

Shahad: think

Nouf: 7ta ento 9rto m3ah 5air!!!! 

Nouf: ana eli mfro6' atrka ana eli ga3dt m3ah 7ta law eni darya enh m7aky 3'airi!!!! Bs zy elthora ga3dt! Law jaya mni ahwn bs ana ma aj7d el3shra bdgegten zyh!!!

Nouf: t7sboni ma adri en kl hatha 3shan lulu?

Shahad: la tbal3'en!! Shd3wa hal lulu eli sa7rt'h

Nouf: yashai5a alah yhneh m3 lulu aw 3'airha ana m3ad yhmni 5ala9. 

Shahad: fakri feha

Reem: tra btt7sfen 7af6'enk

Raghad: t4kren yom ngolk ena etha ra7 ydrs bra byt3'ayr?

Nouf: law sm7to 5ala9 mali 5lg abdddd.. 

Shahad: a9lan rabi byrzgk bli a7sn mna

I stayed quiet for few minutes..

Nouf: men gal abi 3'erh? 
---

I prayed. 
Every minute. 
Of every hour. 
Of every day. 
That he comes back with anything.
A word?
I miss you? 
I need you?
Ya j3lni ma an7rm mn hal9ot?
Galb faisal enti? 
Nothing. 
A whole month passed with nothing. 
He disappeared from twitter, stopped writing thoughts on path, i never saw his last seen a9lan ana shaylta 3shan 3war galbi and he never called, i tried looking if he's online on skype but he never went online, for a whole month!!!! 
I fucking struggled. I lost weight, i lost my glow, my joy, i lost everything that used to represent me, my grades for the month went very low, believe it or not! I stopped going out, and nothing would've got me out of this 3'air shahad reem and raghad, they were with me, but they didn't fill the hole of emptiness inside me.
The hole of missing him kept getting bigger and bigger, but i knew that by time i'd get used to it.. 
Inshallah.