Here and the Ch.3

Previously; 

Nouf: faisal

Faisal: 3yonh

Nouf: a7bk

Faisal: amot fek

Nouf: <3

I wore my uniform w 5ala9t klshay w 6l3t w ana blsyara dagt shahad..

Shahad-crying so hard-: n-nouf 

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Nouf: smi hala wsh fek?

Shahad: mama

I was denying it inside so i told her to sit still and we had to change directions from school to the hospital, mama came with me this time and she was denying it too.

We went inside and shahad's face was as red as a tomato from crying w 5alha 5alid kan maskha eli law tarkha elbnt bt6e7 she wasn't holding on too tight, mama couldn't help herself and she sat down l2n klna 3arfen shahad gwya eli 93b 93b t9e7 mn 3umrna w e7na n3rf halshay bs mn t3bt omha she cried every night bs this time it was so bad. 

El3'areb ena 7alat omha esta8rt, y3ni kant yom w bt6l3 that's what made it even harder on her.. Manori was on my mind, etha shahad kbera tgdr tddbr nafs'ha bs manori kam 3umrha 10? Walla lsa matfrg bain el9a7 w el3'ala6 shlon tdbr nafs'ha 6b fr6'na ena this walid guy w ja tgdm lshahad mn tt5rj, manori tro7 jeddah mathlan? Her dad ma mskha 6ool thalsnen w ymskha al7en?

Too many thoughts were roaming in my head and then i felt shahad hugging me so tight without any sound, it broke my heart. 

Khalid was so strong, this family was strong mn el om lbnat'ha la5oha lomha but i literally just saw him breaking down. 

Mama took shahad home and khalid drove in his car after dealing with stuff in the hospital, death papers. 

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Shahad didn't talk much in the past 2 days w el9alat kant asw2 part she was dying tbe t9e7 bs mdri shlon w9lha 5abr ena lma tbken elmayt yt3thb and she bottled it all up w kther nas mst3'rba shlooon! W el3aza been like that, the girls and i nro7 elmdrsa nrj3 3ala bait jadt'ha where the 3aza was and we would just stay quiet for hours with her gabl mayjon elnas w she would break down every once in a while, when manori knew she got really sick and she stopped eating that's why she ended up in the hospital w mu3'athi w 7osa for 2 days.. I've always tried to put a smile on my face just to give shahad hope that everythings gonna be alright but it never worked.. Raghad and reem were very emotional about it l2n we've known shahad's mother for so long and it's like losing a part of your family .. We stayed every day lma tnam w ba3dha n6la3, mashallah mashallah 9a7 ena agarbhom mub kthaar bs elnas ma wagft 9dg etha a7b allah 3abd 7bab elnas feh<3 shahad's dad ja lkl ayam l3aza 3ala 7asb kalam khalid eli w9l lreem 3ala a5r yom.... 

-3rd day and last- 

Reem-while munching on her sandwich-: khalid ygol abo shahad ja klayam el3aza 7bebi true love never dies -sad tone-

Ashwnna shahad kant ttrawsh wagt'ha.. And yes, nafsyt'ha shwaya t3dlt she's more brighter now, jaw akthr mn 7urma ygrbonlha w klmoha l7alha w ketha and i saw a really good affect mn klamhom, at least now she would drink water shway yamaa da5t 3lena bthal 3 ayam alah yhdeha!

Raghad: ya bnt ell!!! Khalid?

Reem-face expression changing-: 3adi nsoolf he'e like my cousin

Raghad: wreni ya cousin 

Reem: ma y7taj ho 7akeli kam shay private

Nouf: allah ya5th el3adu ento bs t5bon 3ana? W ana walla klshay yngalkom tshofeen ya zg

Reem-jumping to hug nouf-: la la walaaa walla ma a5bi ha ba3d egri el conv

Nouf-lauging-: engal3i la t5meni

Shahad-getting out of the shower-: esh fek ??

She was still very quiet, eli y7znni bs maraaaa a7sn el7amdellah, 7kait lshahad elsalfa 3shan shway t3'ayrlha jaw

Shahad: ana a3rf a9lan-laughing-

Nouf: fgaaasha

Reem: yalfgsh a9lan mafe shay t3rfena!!

Shahad: la t9jeni 5ali w ana a3rfa w 3shan ketha ma 9fgtk ana kaf lma swetli salfa 3ala walid

Reem: shahaaaad 

Raghad: i'm out of this place -laughing- 5aaair leh t5bon

Nouf: ra3'doooh la ykon 3ndk balwa w sakta?

raghad: la la i'm good for now

We talked about few things and then shahad 8rart enha btnam elyom l7alha i went downstairs w lgait mama m3 jadt shahad w her cousins w ketha nas g3dt shway m3ahom w lma jena bn6l3 estaw3bt ena 3bayti b 3'urft shahad fa i went upstairs ajebha..

I tried not to over hear bs 9raaa7a ma gdrt abdn..

-THIS PART IS FROM SHAHAD POV-

Walid: galb walid kaifk?

Shahad: better than yesterday 

Walid: ba3d eldnya jet elyom w shft abok w 5alk

Shahad: 9dgg?-3abra-

Walid: eee 

Shahad: w esh ba3d e7keli -sigh-

Walid: umm esh wdk 3ndi swalef kther

Shahad: esh swait w esh maswait?

Walid: wallah ga3d blbait 6ool elwagt bali m3ak yagalbi

Shahad: ba3d glb galbk ent

Walid: susu kasrt yadha ams 

Shahad: uff! Esh 9arlhaa(

Walid: t3rfenha ng6a w jsmaha wla shay fa ygalha tl3b blsekl w faj2a el framl ma adri wsh 9ar w sr63 he w eljadr wa7d -laughing-

Shahad-laughing-:7ram 3alek la t'67kk

Walid: yaaaaa j3l hal'67ka tdom goli amen 

Shahad-blushing-

Walid: kaif manori 7bebi?

Shahad: manorii esh?

Walid: manorii 7beebii

Shahad: walidoh

Walid-laughing-: enti 7ub 7yati he 7bebi

Shahad: ummhm

Walid: ya dala3

Walid was so good at this, he took my mind from over thinking.. And he was so patient!!! i'd never ever thought that a guy would stay with me l2n i'm so hard to handle and at times ana 93b at7ml nafsi! 

He tried his best with all ways just to keep me entertained he talked about every single thing, until i sleep. And it was like that with him every night since i knew him. He had this idea of"ma abek tnamen mt6'ayga w t97en mt6'ayga, abek tnamen mrta7a w 3ad bkaifk e97i mt6'ayga bs 6'egt elnom shaina" 

I loved keeping him to myself, eli beni w bena yg3d beni w bena i liked our privacy.. Bs now el7lwat ydron so i can't keep anything from them.

-BACK TO NOUF's POV-

I over heard her"emhm's" walla ma nl3b tdal3 ba3d..

Shahad: mabi anam

..

Shahad: la 93ba

..

Shahad: mama mnera t7t w kl my cousins naymen fe betna

..

Shahad: 6yb mta? 

..

Shahad: bs syara fahm?

..

Shahad: hahaha 6'reef

Shit, she's going out. Ma abi.

I came inside w mskena na6t mn mkanha!

Shahad: mar7tii!!

Nouf: haw ma nmti! Jet ba5th 3baytii

Shahad: aah okay

Nouf-taking el3baya slowly-: ela sh5bar walid? 

Shahad: kwais kwais

Nouf: klmk?

Shahad: ee klyom

Nouf: ra3i wajb walla

Shahad: hahaha

I saw the "keli zg" expression on her face. LOL!!

Shahad: mara7 tro7en?

Nouf: ela yala bye

Shahad: bye.

Nouf: entabhi 3ala nafskk

Shahad-laughing-: ok-aay

Nouf: don't do anything risky -low tone-

Shahad-smacking her forehead and laying back to the pillow-: bye

-BACK TO SHAHAD's POV-

Walid-laughing so hard-: 9degtk gaaf6a

Shahad: mara7 a6l3 5ala9 btblshnii

Walid: elii yray7kk 

Shahad: mara7 tnnam?

Walid: w kaif anam w enti 9a7ya?

Shahad: yala bnam

Walid: t9b7en 3ala 5air ya galbi

Shahad: stay with me

Walid: okay

Shahad: ..

Walid: ..

Shahad:..

Walid:.. 

I guess i fell asleep after half an hour oh hearing only his breathing. Most relaxing sound no doubt. 

-NOUF's POV-

In the past few days mara glel a7aki faisal bs he was soooo supportive. And yesss he got a new phone!

[whatsapp]

Faisal: bntt

Faisal: i miss you

Faisal: yaaa sa7b 3alenaa

Faisal: ya ya ya

Faisal: amz7 tell me everything when you read this-2 hours ago-

Nouf: heyyy<3

Nouf: i miss YOU

Nouf: kaifkk w kaif e5tbar elyom?

Nouf: im soo tired abi sreeeri

Nouf: t7dak men ja elyom

Faisal: hala hala kwais kla el7mdelah w enti kefk?

Faisal: meen?

Nouf: haifa bnt 5altk

Faisal: ya7leelha m3kom blmdrsa?

Nouf: eee bs t5rjt last year 

Faisal: ee 

Nouf: esh ga3d tswe

Faisal: m3 el3yal 

Nouf: ee w kaifk esh swait ?

Faisal: esh bswe =)) tawa yomi badi

Nouf: loool 6ybb a39aab

Gra w sfh:| okay a9lan 5lga knt bnam:) 

I slept at 1:30 and woke up for school at 5, zy elesh? Elklba. 

I woke up and checked my phone as usual, nothing from faisal..

Reem is going to skip and shahad is coming back, because she feels like school is going to take away her mind. Weird.

Anyways, i went to school w nafsyti zg mara 6be3y kaif ya2thr feni faisal b6regat klama..

Nouf-ygalha mntbha lelestatha-

Shahad-poking her-: esh fek

Nouf: elzg faj2a glb

Shahad: w bdaina n7s

Nouf-giving her the kli zg look-

Raghad-looking back to shahad and nouf-: leh reem elzga 3'aybaa?

Shahad: no idea

Raghad-talking to shahad-: shfeha elnafsya?

Shahad: faa9oli 9ayr zg

Raghad: mn tzgaga enzg 3aleh 

Shahad and nouf-laughing so loud-

The day passed and i went back home, fought the urge not to talk to faisal and then slept. For the whole freaking day. 

I had a midterm the next day. 

Homework.

Dinner with my cousins. 

And i was going to take a7md to the pets store.

But noooo, i slept! Ya 76'kk elzain ya nouf. It was 11:30 or something 15 missed calls mn my 2 cousins, 3 from mama, a7md kik-ed me "t25arti 3shan ketha bnam" 7raaaam 7bebi:'( 

And the group 6b3an eli ma yskt! 

w ela '39b bymawtoni.

T3rfon lma tft7on whatsapp ba3d ma ttrkona for a while w ykon m3lg w awal ma yft7 yje convs ktheeera walla 3eni ma 6a7t ela 3ala 7gt faisal!  

Faisal: hey-1 hour ago-

Nouf: hi

Faisal: wenk 6ol lyom

Nouf: asleep

Faisal: w el9alat?

Nouf: wsh aswe ma7d gawmni gmt w 9lait 

Faisal: 6yb gomi kle shay 9a797i

Nouf: ma asht'hii

Faisal: ana asht'hi yala

Nouf: 6ah

Faisal: 6ah

Nouf: =))

Faisal: nouf

Nouf: yess

Faisal: i'll call 

Nouf: 6b dgega 

Faisal: bs voice

Nouf: bro7 el7mam..

Faisal: LOOOOOOOOOL 

Nouf: =)):) 

7 minutes later..

Nouf: done

Faisal wants to voice call you> 

Nouf: ahln

Faisal: wa7shni 9ootk

Nouf: ee 4 days are a lot

Faisal: w kaifk?

6b3an ma a7kelkkom 3an elfar7aa, w ba3d nset adrs w aswe elmlfat w elhomework.. Mara ywans.

Nouf: i'm good i guess enta kaifk ?

Faisal: better than ever

Nouf: kwais 

Faisal: wsh btswen bukra weekend w ketha

Nouf: badrs-crying tone-

Faisal: haaw wrah

Nouf: badrs lel8udrat mara thanya 

Faisal: last weekend drasti kthrt eldrasa bt6ayr lm3lomat

Nouf: 3an nafsi w kaman 3ndi midterm biology 

Faisal: allah y3enk wala

Nouf: ameen ef

Moment of silence. 

Faisal: kef shahad?

Nouf: daaawmt elyom!-excitement- 

Faisal: mashallah kwais

La tst3'rbon ena faisal ya2l 3n 97bati, abdn blthat shahad l2n ashk ena y3zha akthr mnii, we both own her sooo much, she has helped us in a lot of situations.. Zy gabl ma ysafr we went into the biggest fight w ma 3adl elwa'63 ela shahad.

Nouf: eee mara al7amdellah w elnafsya mara zaina

Faisal: jatni wa7da elyom bljam3a-laughing-

I knew from that moment ena maw6'o3 elsalfa ya nouf get jealous but baby nothing's got anything on me, i know very well that he's mine and no girl will take him from me. Yes.

Nouf: aywaa

Faisal: kna jalsen ana wl3yal 3nd elsyart w ketha elzbda jat w kaifkom el7amdelah kwaisen enti kaifk el7amdellah w ya enha t5sh bl3ain ya nofii eli 3aib ya bnt

Nouf-laughing-

Faisal: elzbda jat galt esm3o ena there's this saudi gathering fe bait wa7da mn elbnat etha tbon tjon 

Nouf: y3 wsh thalgarf

Faisal: la la ma3lek mu shay wow bs ytjm3on w fe akl sha3bi w ashya2 kna yom wa6ni

Nouf: 7ta wlaw!

Faisal: elzbdaa majak el5abr ana saakt galt ha faisal jaay?

Faisal: ana mu bs 36et'ha na6'ra eli mn el9adma '67kt w 7ram fashlt'haa

Nouf: tstahl-laughing-

Faisal: walla mara mskeena wdi aro7 at2sf agol mu g9di

Nouf: ebn omk

Faisal: shfeek abu s3oood 39bt 3leena-laughing-

Nouf: ma 39bt bs wsho tt2sf-laughing-

Faisal: mara7 aroo7

Nouf: eee zain elzbda ana lazm adrs w ketha aklmk lma a5l9

Faisal: okay babe alah ygawekk

Nouf: thank you entbh 3ala nafskk

Faisal: abshri

Nouf: bye

Faisal: ee w esh ba3d

Nouf: wsh tbe ba3d?

Faisal: to2bshni ebn 3ami ay shay?

Nouf: faisal-laughing so hard-

Faisal: tdren '67ktk esh blnsba le?

Nouf: esh?

Faisal: 3eelaj, dwaa, shay y3ayshni zy elmoya bl6'ab6 yomain bdon ma asm3ha at3b

Nouf-blushing so hard-

Faisal: i can feel you smiling

Nouf-laughing-: 6yb 

Faisal: a7bk

Nouf: w ana ba3d mara a7bk

 

Faisal: ashwa 

Nouf: bye ya faisal-laughing-

-skipping to school-

Shahad: abi n6l3

Reem: ween tben enti bs amri

Shahad: ummm

Reem: ummm

Raghad: umm

Shahad: tao

Nouf: faisal ykrhaaaaaaa la

Shahad raghad and reem-ignoring me-

Nouf: heeeey-laughing- wallaaa ya5i 5alnajrb shay jded

Reem: tbon entrecote ? 

Shahad: no ma asht'hi

Raghad: asht'hi mirage aw ay shay chinese ketha noodles

Shahad: noodles house!?

Nouf: good choice 

Reem: okay kwais bs ana ymkn ma aji ela mt25r wla 5loha 39rr

Nouf: wsh 3ndha el business women ??

Raghad: 3ndha jam3t 5alt'haa

Reem: bl6'ab6

Shahad: 3adi ahm shay t3ali

Nouf: nrj3 3ala baitna?

-

I got ready and everything, no make up make up and my bag w bs.. 

I called shahad and raghad w gltlhom eni 6la3t w bl6reeg dg 3lay faisal w lawl mara ydg bdon maygoli..

Faisal: ahln

Nouf: hi baby

Faisal: kaifk?

Nouf: kwaisa, esh fek?

Faisal: eshtahet asm3 9otk

Nouf: la fek shay? I can feel it 

Faisal: la la

Nouf: faisal?

Faisal: ga3da tdrsen?

Nouf: la blsyara

Faisal: wen ray7a?

Nouf: noodles house?

Faisal: centria?

Nouf: ee

Faisal: okaay enbs6i

Nouf: bt7keli esh fek?

Faisal: la

Nouf: 6yb dgega banzl

Faisal: la 5ala9 baskr

Nouf: okay bye..

I was shit worried, 9ota mu mara m6mni.. Bs i never overreact ybi y7ki y7ki maybe bslamta mara7 a'63'a6 3aleh y3rf weni mta mab3'a dg. 

We sat and talked and ate, w lsa my mind m3ah..

Shahad: reem btje?

Nouf: 3ala beti 3ala 6ol

Raghad: 5al na5thlna barmeeee hekk

Nouf: 5thi barmee l7alk

Raghad: yasheenkk

Nouf: esm3o bshawrkom bshay

Shahad: ha? 

Nouf: faisal dg 3aly w ana blsyara w 7sait shway 3'reb ena awal mara ydg mn safr bdon ma y36eni 5abr w 9ota ww'67 feh shay gltla btgoli wshf fek gal la glt 6yb estana anzl w ketha a7kek gali la 5ala9 a9lan baskr glt okay bye 7ta ma znait wla shay t7son adg?

Shahad: shlon galbk y6aw3k enti?

Nouf: ya alah!

Shahad: 8smbilah ana ma agdr

Nouf: i'm like that.

Shahad: gomi gomi dgi

Nouf: yala bgom bs a5af naym

Shahad: kam 3ndhom? E7na 7 y3ni 3ndhom 7 el9ba7 

Reem: 7beeeebi dag 3alek elfajr w tzbdeenla?

Shahad: ts2 ts2 

Nouf: akrhkom!!

Reem: amana t3'azli feh shway 7sseh enk t7bena-laughing-

Nouf: bzr o9

No one will ever understand how hard it is for me to express my feelings. He KNOWS that he's my one and only. Mu lazm ento t3rfon!

I went to the bathroom and called.. 

Awal mara ma rd thany mara rd w 9ota n9 naym..

Faisal: hmm

Nouf: naym?

Faisal: rj3ti? 

Nouf: la lsa

Faisal: la la mu naym

Nouf: shfek?

Faisal: nom-laughing-

Nouf: yala nam 6yb 

Faisal: matben shay?

Nouf: la bs knt bshof esh fek

Faisal: mafeni eli el3afya galbi enti 

Nouf: kwais

Faisal: yalla etrki jawalk w enbs6i

Nouf: a7bk

Faisal: ba3d eldnya klha a7bk akthr 

I kinda felt relieved after the "a7bk" 

I went back to the table with a smile..

Shahad: hala hala 

Reem: ashoof elebtsama shaga elwajh

Nouf-blushing-: o9

We went back home and they stayed for 3 hours or so w 6l3oo ma9ar shay mara y7ms we watched a movie w 7kena bkam shay i was sleepy by the time they left so nmt w ma 97ait ela el6'hr drst lel biology w ma shft jawali abd w w lma ja el39r w shfta lgait my cousin dgt w ela '39b t3aw6'ena 3n elyom eli s7bti feh..

Nouf: mama bnaat 5alt 3faf by6l3on yt3'adon bro7 m3ahom

Om nouf: 3'da elma3'rb??? Hatha 3asha

Nouf: eeli ho elzbda akl

Om nouf: la tt25ren bs

Nouf: inshallaah 

I took a shower and got ready, maknt adri ay m63m bnro7 9ra7a elzbda as i got in the car i checked my whatsapp w lgait faisal m7akeni as usual.

Faisal: nouf -4 hours agl

Faisal: wenk bs 9ayra t5tfen-2 hours ago

Nouf: sorry roo7ii ent gmt w drast w en5rsht 3shan ba6l3 m3 my cousins w tawnii arkb elsyara

Faisal: aah 

Nouf: kaifkk??

Faisal: kwais 

Nouf: 3'reba ma nmt?

Faisal: lool 

Nouf: ??

Faisal: bnam al7en t9b7en 3ala 5air

Damn, guiltiness ate me up.

Nouf: 6yb bdg shway gabl ma tnam

Faisal: ok

-Skype voice call-

Nouf: i miss you

Faisal: wa'67

Nouf: haw

Faisal: wsho

Nouf: ent 3arf faisal ma af6'a drasa w zg

Faisal: drast esh! Kl ma 7kaitk ya nayma ya 6al3a!!

Nouf: bs eni adrs wagt ma tkon 9a7i! Ma a6l3 ela w ent naym! 

Faisal: la tjlsen tt3athren

Nouf: ma t34rt 

Faisal: wdi mara wa7da tf6'en w tgrain el conv wala 7ta a5wyai ma a7kehom ketha 

Nouf: esh elm6lob?

Faisal: mu m6lob shay, slaamtk

Nouf: faisal 6yb goli 3shan a3dl!

Faisal: mn lma twaft om shahad 

Nouf: alah yr7mha

Faisal: ma 7kait m3ak wla klma 9a7ya

Nouf: i know that's why i really miss you!-low tone

Faisal: ..

Nouf: faisal law sm7t la tshel b5a6rk you know eni ma at3md shay 

Faisal: adri bs enti tflmen 3lay eni ma a7kek w ma aswe w ma aswe w enti tswen nafs elshay bl6'ab6!

Nouf: time fucking difference ya faisal ent t97a ana anam w el3aks i can't keep a day going!

Nouf: tbeni aglb nomi 3shank? Abshr walla ma 6labt shay

Faisal: ya alah mnk

Nouf: ent 3arf eni a7wl gd ma agdr i keep up with studying, YOU, family, friends 

Faisal: 6yb w esh el7al

Nouf: bear with me

Faisal: kl hatha w bear with me yashaai5a ana le esbo3 ma shft wjhk w mt7ml 

Nouf: a7bk ok? W tra nothing can change anything 

Faisal: "no time difference, no nothing will take me away from you." 

Nouf: that's exactly what i said.

And we all know ya readers ena when guys talk in english, nbki. And faisal's voice is sooo deep eli 7ta lma yhz2 astmt3 b9otaa LOL!

Faisal: 6yb

Nouf-sigh-: 6yb..

Faisal: 5ala9 a7kek lma a97a?

Nouf: okay 

Faisal: take care

Nouf: good night

Faisal: ..

Nouf: .. 

Faisal:..

We stayed quiet for 2 minutes..

Nouf: mara7 tskr?

Faisal: 7ta w ana sakt m3ak 3'air

Nouf: gol amen

Faisal: amen 

Nouf: alah la y7rmni mnk

Faisal: wla mnk-in a sincere tone-

I love him, with all my heart. 

& my love for him can never be described in words or actions nothing will ever hold up the love i have for him.

And nothing ever can show him the least of how much he means to me.

Yes, i'm cold outside.

But deep inside, i have so much feelings that only him can understand. 

Only him can feel. And i'm sure he knows well how much his existence means to me. Without him i am nothing, he's the my first and my last.

And as cheesy as this may sound, i see us under one roof.